hey, this is my first post. i found this forum while looking for advice.
well where to start...
The Beginning.
the most beautiful girl ive ever seen. she breaks up with her boyfriend whos a drug addicted, alchoholic, piece of crap that doesnt have a job and cheated on her constantly (also hit her). we start dating, she is staying with a friend and doesnt have a place to live. we start living together shortly after.
things are great we are truly in love i would do anything for her.
months go by, we begin to smoke marijuana on occasion eventually it takes over our lives. we would fight about things but never get any resolution. we would just brush it off and not deal with the problem. and smoke some more weed. things get bad and the exciting "newness" of the relationship wears off. eventually it gets to be too much.
she leaves me...
i cant believe this would ever happen. we were supposed to get married and have kids. we had problems but it wasnt the end of the world. she loved me what happened???
i realize that my drug abuse had made me a different person than i was and stop cold turkey. and will never touch the stuff. this means nothing to her obviously as she continues to use occasionally.
she refuses to talk about the break up and nothing seems to change her mind. she has built a wall around her heart and thrown me out. she says she has never been single and doesnt know who she is, she needs to find herself.
2 months later i find out that she is back with her old boyfriend and may be engaged.
i would give the world the world to see this girl smile.
what is wrong with her and what do i do?