First Breakup

[Binxy]

I have to face this guy at college tomorrow...argh

I feel like such a failure. I don't why I let this happen.

I should be over her now, but I'm not

Go in there with your head held high. You are NOT a failure. Act as though you couldn't be happier, even if the inside doesn't feel that way. Letting them see you looking like you've been beat up will only give them a smug satisfaction. Plus sometimes when you pretend to be happy Magic Happens....you actually BECOME Happy! It's amazing lol and it's worth a try. If your in college, then try taking the blinders off and looking around, I bet you'll see there's other girls there

[Gigabitch]

I do want to be happy.

I'm being pathetic aren't I?

You kinda frightened me with the co-dependancy thing. I think I'm too afraid to attend the meetings, it sounds a little daunting

Dude, YOU are frightening ME with the codependency thing. Don't you want to feel better? Don't you want a nice girlfriend who treats you right? This is clearly not going to happen with this girl. Ever. Wake up and smell the dysfunction.

[SWLR]

Seriously, I want to go over to your house and have some kind of intervention with you. I would move your ass out of town if necessary. This is a BAD GIRL, and you aren't available for any kind of relationship with a good girl, because you're STILL her bitch after all this time.

What do your friends think of all this- or are you really good at hiding this?

I'm really good at hiding it. I don't talk to anyone about it really

[SWLR]

Dude, YOU are frightening ME with the codependency thing. Don't you want to feel better? Don't you want a nice girlfriend who treats you right? This is clearly not going to happen with this girl. Ever. Wake up and smell the dysfunction.

I really do want to be happy again. I just can't let go.. even now

You know what else, she read my e-mail inbox and got mad because of a conversation I had with a girl. That was only a few days ago

There I go again...

[SWLR]

I deleted her.. I did it

Please tell me it gets better now

[Gigabitch]

I deleted her.. I did it

Please tell me it gets better now

Only if you keep moving in that direction. No U-turns, okay? You'll get better if you let yourself. God, you treat yourself like crap- do better, please.

[SWLR]

I couldn't even look at my """friend""" today...

I was so angry, but it seems to follow with a state of sadness. weird

I'm going to do this, I'll get there.

Thank you for your support.. It's appreciated

[SWLR]

I must of done something really awful.

I play guitar in a band and we have a big gig coming in two weeks... but guess what..Both of the them are going to be there, right in my face.

What do I do? I can't back out of the gig, I don't want to let the other guys down

[Gigabitch]

Jesus Christ! Someone should tell them not to come- why are people so rotten where you live, anyway?

Do you live in Pennsylvania?

[SWLR]

I think the whole world hates me. I'm not allowed to be happy. ever.

I live in the UK and 90% of the people are horrible people

[TRitter]

I've read all the posts (skimmed a bit) and I just want to say I'm sorry you went through that, and still are. Perhaps there is a question you can ask yourself, would your ideal partner, someone that loves you, someone worth loving by you, make you feel so unhappy and terrible, confused and angry, and led on over several months?

A quote I read in a book once... any fool can fall in love... but the trick is to fall in love with someone who will actually do you some good. Not saying you're a fool of course, though I suppose we all are sometimes. Take care and I wish you the best.

Keep telling yourself you deserve better, and that the right person for you would never make you feel so bad with all those things. Think of it as a bad addiction, like smoking or alcoholism, and that its worth getting rid of, no matter how good it may seem at the moment.

[Gigabitch]

Checking in- how are you today, dude? Did you think happy thoughts?

[SWLR]

I did, until I got home.

She tried re-adding me on Myspace. I haven't accepted it yet.

I told her on MSN i didn't want them coming to the gig.. She still hasn't repiled.

I've heard some of the things my "friend" has said about her, and there not nice... should I tell her?

All I can think about is them two together and it kills me inside.. I'm just sick of it all

[Gigabitch]

I did, until I got home.

She tried re-adding me on Myspace. I haven't accepted it yet.

I told her on MSN i didn't want them coming to the gig.. She still hasn't repiled.

I've heard some of the things my "friend" has said about her, and there not nice... should I tell her?

All I can think about is them two together and it kills me inside.. I'm just sick of it all

No No No No No. You're like a kid with a fork, going for the electrical outlet. DON'T DO IT.

[SWLR]

In reply to her friend request, maybe?

"Why should I add you as a friend, when you are treating me so rotten?"

Or should I just decline and leave it at that?

I've got so many questions, argh.

I thought I could of coped until I found out they are going to be in my face all night, they'll be doing all the things we used to do and saying all the things she used to say to me.