I have been shy around girls for my whole life until lately, I have done abit with girls but havn't REALLY liked any of them as a girlfriend,I started talking to this one girl I know from school at my friends party at the start of summer and have talked to her quite abit both on the internet and in person.
I know she is shy also, because loads of boys I know have tried it on with her and failed, she has alot of self respect, but I feel I have more in common with her than anyone and can talk to her openly about stuff more than anyone else, she shares very similar interests to me. I have thought about her every single day for quite abit since my friends party, and I would go so far as to say as I love her because I cannot stop thinking about her, the problem comes in where she doesn't love me back.
I stupidly said at another friends party that I really liked her, which jeopardized all the time I had spent getting close to her because she does not return any of this interest, she didn't say it then but I got my friend who is her best friend to ask her if she liked me. The response was "I really really like him as a friend but nothing more, but I still want to remain friends with him and talk to him because we really get on".
I know I should give up now, but I honestly feel as if this is the only thing that has really mattered to me for a very very long time and I would give up everything for her to even show the slightest bit of interest in return. My friends say they understand but I don't think they really do, I have been staying in every day wondering what I need to do now because the way I look at everything has changed. You can call it teenage hormones (I am only 16) playing up if you want, I know it isn't. Before I met her properly, I had no real aim in my life, go to college, get a career etc. but next to this, none of that seems important in the slightest.
My question is this, is there still any chance of her liking me in a more than friends way? I know I couldn't give up now even if I tried, and I definately couldn't let her go, which seems stupid as hell as she has never even liked me in the way I like her. What I aim to do is to be a good friend to her without all the awkwardness and then start making moves in the future, without rushing things this time. I don't suppose I really gave her any signs that I liked her as more than a friend until I told her so I doubt there was really any reason for her to like me in that way, but I don't know anyone else who is more on my wavelength about nearly everything, the only difference between me and her is that I love her and she doesn't love me.
Is there any way to create that chemistry and salvage any chance we have of getting together? because if there isn't I honestly don't think I could live happily indefinately. How can I turn our friendship into more? Would it make any difference if I told her how much I loved her? because I know if I expressed myself truthfully it would come out beautifully, but does knowing someone loves you generate ANY feeling back?