Well, so its the end of my first semester of College, which makes it very close to 1 year since I created this account back in the winterbreak of senior year of high school.
In college, I've been extremely involved with a lot of stuff while maintaining my 4.0. Because of these involvements, I haven't been able to really make many close friends or have a ton of time to date. I had my first real "date" in this first semester of college, and I was really obsessed over her for like more than a month. But the only problem is that while I like certain parts of her personality, there are other major parts that turn me off... She is definately NOT your average girl. take my word for it. I'm not even going into physical attractiveness here, because she has that.
Because of these certain lacks and flaws, I don't really see myself with her in a real long-term relationship. Yet I can't seem to move on? I've tried three times this semester, in attempts to forget about her, to just cut contact. But she always calls me back. She knows I like her. But yet, do I? I don't know. Besides her, I've only found interest in one other girl, but that's really a distant shot.
I feel really weird because I am at large college with literally tens of thousands of girls. But I have only found two girls so far that I'd go for, and one of them, as stated, I try to forget but can't.
I KNOW I am desperate. And it is really getting into my happiness here at college... Any advice? I am completely lost.