I don't know why...
Short Intro: Met some one that made me feel like happy, laught etc....it odd but i told that person secrets that is at the bottom of my heart that i even havn't told any one not even my family...it's odd but it like one of those first sight thing you know...and i only knew that person for like few weeks..it so wierd...
But after opening my heart once again...and yet i think it's a way of rejection but i got asked to be a god brother....
It is eh? I know it a silent way of saying i don't see you more then a friend.
but why..that person gave me a feeling..even in a way trying to open to me...i know...
Now I feel as if i lost all my confidence to ever open my heart again...i feel like i don't trust woman..
Maybe it's because of all the issues i have like family..is a major thing that impacted me and love life....
God i feel like crap..feel bad...feel sad....feel lost....feel like i don't want to love again...it's bad i know but i don't know why...why!!!???!