Mm, I don't remember how I found this place. Probably Google or Yahoo... I don't even remember what I was looking for.
I'm a college girl, nineteen. Bisexual. And I've fallen for my best friend of five or six years. Of course, it's been nearly two years since I fell for her.
I didn't come here to ask about what I can do to change her mind--I can't. She's straight. I've told her that I love her, and she's perfectly fine with that. We're still best friends. But she gets so sad sometimes, and I feel so helpless... We're at colleges in different states, but we talk every night. I'd give anything just to be able to give her a hug and tell her that everything will be all right.
Maybe I want to know if it's possible to get over her, though I don't think it is. Maybe I want to know if it would be stupid of me to date someone else while still in love with her, though I think it would be. Maybe I just want to be surrounded by both pain and success, a community of people who can show me that there is more than one possible outcome.
Sorry, it's past 3.00 AM. My brain isn't exactly in one piece at the moment...
I think... tonight will be another when I cry myself to sleep, simply because it's comforting.
I suppose I'll browse the forums more after my classes are over with tomorrow--that is, later today.