I've been reading here for a couple of weeks but I don't know why I haven't started my own thread yet, so here it is. It's quite long!
My boyfriend of five years broke up with me on December 8th. Obviously I'm absolutely devastated as I love him just as much as I ever have. We've been living together for four years and I honestly thought we'd be together forever. But he said he's been thinking about breaking up with me since August but didn't want to say anything as he thought he could get over it. Basically, he was 17 when we together and he's now 23 and has changed a lot in that time. He's fallen out of love with me, says he doesn't need me any more, he's just not content. This all caught me completely by surprise which is why I'm hurting so much. He still loves me as a friend and doesn't want to hurt me, but he doesn't see how the relationship will work.
About a week ago I found out that he's been talking to his friends about how to get another girl to go out with him. Saying she's "awesome and hot" and is "depressed because he's fallen for the most unobtainable girl possible" as she's in a six year relationship. I confronted him about it and he says he's just being stupid as he's never had a crush on anyone else since we got together and he's just testing the waters. He went out with her for a drink and said that, although he likes her, he realised that they don't have that special 'spark' that me and him have and he wants us to get back together but doesn't see how it would work.
He's still going to move out of our house, to the town where he goes to University 18 miles away, for a break and to sort his head out. He said that even if he moves out, it doesn't mean that our relationship is over. The thing is, it's at University where he met this other girl and she's in his class so he has to see her every day in class and then in social situations as they'll live close together. I understand what he means about being confused about having feelings for another girl, but I don't think it will help matters much if he sees her every day, he'll only fall for her more and I will be gone out of his mind. Is he just saying these things to try not to hurt me or is it possible that he's telling the truth? I'm just thankful that her boyfriend is getting in the way.
I suggested relationship counselling and he said he will think about it. He's very upset about losing his feelings for me and wants to get it back. I'm very confused and have come to the conclusion that he's acting in this way because either:
a) He's trying to break up with me gently over time to help me get used to it as I genuinely believe he doesn't want to hurt me. OR
b) He's confused as to whether he wants to make us work or if he wants to see other people. OR
c) He wants to keep me 'on standby' in case it doesn't work out with this other girl, or any other relationship he might have.
There are millions of other details and I hope I've given enough here to give an outline of what's going on, I'll be happy to answer any other questions.
So, do you think it's worth us trying to get counselling, or should I just let him go as, if he's changed and wants different things now, is it going to be a fruitless task him trying to get back his feelings for me? I've heard about this happening all the time in other relationships, someone thinks they don't need the other person any more and then realising what they've lost once they start seeing other people. Do you think that could happen to us? Thanks for reading!