Hi this is my first post, i just registered, I'm desparate for help and dont know who to ask, so here i am. I took a look through the archives as recommended but I havent found anything that answers my problem.
Here's the backstory:
my girlfriend and i have been together for 6 months now. I'm 18 and she's 17. we get along great, spend lots of time together, and when we dont we're chatting on the phone.
when i met her, her ex-boyfriend was harrassing her constantly at school. I had a reputation for being the big, nice guy who helped those who needed it, so she came to me. I had done it before, so i figured this was no different. I was still with my ex-boyfriend at this point, but we had been fighting nonstop for the last month and i was getting ready to dump him. my (now) girlfriend wanted help dealing with her ex-boyfriend but also made it clear (with body language and plenty of flirting) that she had an interest in me.
to make things seem more dramatic her father did not allow her to go out or hangout with anyone that does not have a clean CORI check (my gf has had a bad past), so she basically had no friends outside of school, and didnt go anywhere besides school or work. so i volunteered unwittingly to submit to a CORI and be her designated liason to the outside world.
soon after that, i broke up with my boyfriend, and a few days later, hooked up with this girl. i treated it simply as a hook up. i was just out of a sour relationship and wanted to do something fun. coincidentally she felt the same way. however, after a few weeks it was clear that we really liked each other, and started dating.
the fact that our relationship started on the basis of me being her knight in shining armor is probably the biggest mistake i've made with her. since we started dating she has had a number of emotional breakdowns (in my arms) regarding her past and the stresses of her current existence (which are numerous). i call myself her boyfriend but often feel like a therapist. sometimes i wonder (as im driving to pick her up for a date) what new tragedy has befallen her that i need to console her about.
yet i care about her alot, my past wasnt very easy either, and with that common history we find our being together justified. "we support each other, and need each other" is one thing ive said to her. we have confessed love to each other, we do so 50 times a day. she bought me a 600 dollar promise ring three months ago! i wear it whenever i can. we both want to stay committed to each other forever.
we both have anger issues, and are both quite aware of it. we fight very rarely and when we do we try to avoid pushing each other's buttons. i try to keep continuous communication between us and remind her that "we cant keep secrets from each other. secrets are what destroys relationships". through either that mentality, or just good luck, we've managed to stay together this long, which is a record for me.
we are both quite physically attracted to each other. amor is plentiful and easily acquired.
but for some reason i still have this uneasy feeling in the back of my head. my best friend and coworkers think i havent dated around enough to be satisfied that i've trawled the whole ocean for the perfect catch.
yet i know couples who have been together for years, and are totally into each other without looking back.
i tell myself its all in my head, i've second guessed myself my whole life and this isnt any different. i'm afraid to act on it in case i am wrong, but that doesnt quell the uneasy feeling. i have something perfectly good going that i shouldnt let my subconcious ruin. right? i dont know! that is why im spending over an hour writing all this down. i dont want to destory something good, but at the same time i dont know if my feeling is justified or just a figment of my overactive and worrisome imagination. im not even completely sure why i am uneasy. the fact that i cant identify it worries me even more. i hope someone here can help.
as for the background info, too much? too little? not relevant? feel free to grill me