Something I found...

[Kiechi]

10th grade: As I sat there in english class, I stared at the girl next to me. She was my so called 'best friend'. I stared at her long, silky hair, and wished she was mine. But she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. After class, she walked up to me and asked me for the notes she had missed the day before. I handed them to her. She said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.

11th grade: The phone rang. On the other end, it was her. She was in tears, mumbling on and on about how her love had broke her heart. She asked me to come over because she didn't want to be alone, so I did. As I sat next to her on the sofa, I stared at her soft eyes, wishing she was mine. After 2 hours, one Drew Barrymore movie, and three bags of chips, she decided to go to sleep. She looked at me, said 'thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I dont know why.

Senior year: The day before prom she walked to my locker. "My date is sick" she said, hes not gonna go" well, I didn't have a date, and in 7th grade, we made a promise that if neither of us had dates, we would go together-just as 'best friends'. So we did. Prom night, after everything was over, I was standing at her front door step. I stared at her as she smiled at me and stared at me with her crystal eyes. I want her to be mine, but she doesn't think of me like that, and I know it. Then she said- "I had the best time, thanks!" and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

A day passed, then a week, then a month. Before I could blink, it was graduation day. I watched as her perfect body floated like an angel up on stage to get her diploma. I wanted her to be mine- but she didn't notice me like that, and I knew it. Before everyone went home, she came to me in her smock and hat, and cried as i hugged her. Then she lifted her head from my shoulder and said- 'you're my best friend, thanks' and gave me a kiss on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and don't know why.

Now I sit in the pews of the church. That girl is getting married. That girl is getting married now. I watched her say 'i do' and drive off to her new life, married to another man. I wanted her to be mine, but she didn't see me like that, and I knew it. But before she drove away, she came to me and said 'you came!'. She said 'thanks' and kissed me on the cheek. I want to tell her, I want her to know that I dont want to be just friends, I love her but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why.

Years passed, I looked down at the coffin of a girl who used to be my 'best friend'. At the service, they read a diary entry she had wrote in her high school years. This is what it read: "...I stare at him wishing he was mine; but he doesn't notice me like that, and I know it. I want to tell him, I want him to know that I don't want to be just friends, I love him but I'm just too shy, and I don't know why. I wish he would tell me he loved me...

'I wish I did too...' I thought to myself, and i cried.

What do you think?

[PandaCivic]

that's ****en sad. but it's the girls fault too. misleading... ****en ghey that she just told him they were best friends. girls gotta do their part too.

[Fawn]

omg! *tears up* thats so sad... *sniff sniff*

[squirrley]

DAMNNNNNNNN Keichi...how much is this based on your real life? Anyway and either way...wow man. That was incredible.

[jslaughter]

That is so sad but it reminds me of a conversation with a friend last night - he has written the most beautiful love letter to a girl that he loves and wasn't sure if he should send it, my advice. . .

I would rather tell someone everything in my heart and lose them then let them leave and wonder if things would've been different if only they knew I cared

[Kiechi]

Sad isnt it. Hmmm some stages have too place in my life... not the last one though. I hope i never have to cross that bridge either.

[Spanaway55]

Sad isnt it. Hmmm some stages have too place in my life... not the last one though. I hope i never have to cross that bridge either.

that was great, very inspiring, you will never know what it could have been if you never take the dive!

[SpaZz]

Sad!!!!! God damnit I go throw myself off a bridge for being such a dumbass... grrrrrrr stupid irony!!!!!


*sigh* I guess its sad.... but it pisses me off. A life wasted all because of FEAR!!! Not shyness

[swimmingNreverie]

chills up my spine

sad and beautiful

[Chaotic Wun]

Nice work! Very inspiring.

[Cybog]

That's why Im always telling these kids not to live in fear and go for the gusto!

Life is too short to wonder "what if I did this....".

No fear baby.

[jane]

very beautiful ... and the irony of it is killing me.. your making me see things in a differnet light

[squirrley]

It certainly made me think...just to know that life is too short...TAKE THE CHANCE COLUMBUS DID!

You have to take those risks...I know I dont want the shitass on my shoulders down the road saying "you shouldve done it..." Im glad I am taking the risk I am now-its well worth every minute!

[KaWaiiSkYe]

That was so beautiful..

[Anthony]

I can definitely understand the feeling, which is one of the reasons I make certain to let the person know if I have those type of feelings, even if those feelings won't be returned. I can't help but cringe at the familiarity of your description.