I am a total failure with woman. I have never been in a proper relationship and I am 21.
Im not sure if my problem is that I am far too sensitive. I have been played in the past by woman and treated very badly so I just have this sense of wortheless to woman. Woman never really seem interested in me as If I am no good to them, this makes me feel vey ugly and down.
All I ever try and do is treat them nice but all they ever seen to be interested in is the bad guys. I am a thin guy so nowhere near muscly...which is what girls like the muscly bad and cocky guys.
What I am most scared of is never being with someone special. Never being truly happy with that special someone as I beleive that is what life is all about.
I have always been told that the right one will come around when your not looking for it. But I have done that approach in the past. When I was 16 - 18 I solely concentrated on my studies. I attended college and uni and got a BSC in a computing relating subject. I was never interested in being with someone but as time progressed. I left uni, got a job etc and all my mates by this time had girlfriends and were losing touch with me as they were all spending time with their partners.
Does anyone else ever feel like this? Like your invisible and of no good to woman? What makes it worse for me is that I have developed a very bad back problem. I have a very chronic painful back which keeps me in pain most of the days and has given me bad posture. The loe self esteem and pyschological problems going through my head are at their highest point they have ever been in my life.
Because of my past. I suppose I am scared of woman. I am scared of being cheated upon and scared of being played by woman because I have been in the past. Because of this, I am a very shy and anxious guy and I will never approach girls (that I am attracted to), because I feel that the girls I am attracted to are the ones I am just not good enough for and they will play me or treat me bad.
I have a good job, good education, nice car. The only missing jigzaw puzzle in my life is the love of my life. I would give up everything to fall in love with someone special who will fall in love with me. I just feel like im destined to be one of these people who are just destined not to find the one.
I have attatched a pic of myself with fake glasses...ignore the smile...it is a very very fake smile as I may look happy on the outside but on the inside I am very far from being just that.