Warning: This may be a little long but I am letting it all out...!!!
ok as most of you know, i am in a LDR and one of the main reasons they never work is because u cant see your other when u need them or when u want. Seems like everything has to be on a schedule, well this sucks big time. The crazy part is that i love this girl sooooo muchhh and i promised her that i will always be here for her. Now I keep thinking, is this really going to work out. You guys have no idea the sacrafices i made to make this work out and now its taking a really huge toll on me!! I feel great when i talk to her and after i talk to her but when i dont, i feel like crap! Now these are the key points in our relationship:
1- She lives in Canada and i live in NJ/USA(9hrs away).
2- Her family believes in arranged marriage and she was supposed to get married about 2 months ago but refused because she wants me.
3- I cant call her because she is not supposed to have a bf because her parents want her to marry some guy she doesnt know (note: she is 27)
4- We been together for about 5 months now and i have never ever felt this way before about anyone and she tells me the same.
5- I have never ever called her ONCE, not even Once because of #2 and #3 above. I have to wait for her to call me.
These are just some of the MAIN points in our relationship. It just feels like im just waiting and waiting, i have to wait for her to call me every single day. Shyt, i cant even send her a text message. She cant even call me on her cell phone because her crazy sister will check the bill and report back to her parents then all hell will break lose. I just keep asking myself, how much more can i take?? I wasnt supposed to fall in love but it just happened, i have no regrets about being with her but i just dont know what to do anymore.