Okay, I'll try to keep this short but it's likely to be a long'un. It's a bit complicated. Please don't do a tl;dr on me
I met this girl a couple of years ago in high school and we were really great friends, we connected on so many levels and we'd literally be saying and thinking the same things as each other most of the time. We just got on in a way neither of us had ever done with anyone else before. So, naturally we got pretty close over time.
However, she had a boyfriend of a year or so, and they were pretty solid. He was great in bed and he was really great to her. However (yeah, another one) he lived about 3 hours' train journey away from her. I live literally 2 minutes round the corner from her. So we started getting intimate, and I knew it was just because she missed him. But then we really got close and there was a period where we were pretty much in a relationship. We never had sex, though. Sort of a time/place thing. He never knew about any of this although he was pretty suspicious. In the end, we decided to stop because it was getting too risky and she chose him over me.
Okay, now, a year or so on, we're still talking a bit although not nearly as much because she's at college and I'm in Sixth Form (which is like a college in my high school). In the time in between she's still with her boyfriend, but I had two short relationships that didn't really work out. All that time I still thought of her. I'm pretty sure I was in love with her, I know thats a pretty common thing for people to say on here but I really did feel for her in a really deep way. I still do.
Today, we met up and went for a dog walk together. Nothing happened but there was still a little connection - little things like talking about our relationship before (the good parts of it), a bit of flirting, and she said something that she always used to say when we first got together - that she hated her bf being so far away and how it's silly that a guy like me was so close by. "Like me" ? Does that mean she still feels for me? Another thing is that although she never said it, I think a bit of a factor in her choosing him was that I was pretty unconfident about sex -I always used to hold back even though I desperately wanted to go further, and I was never sure why. Now, though, I'm more experienced and I'm fairly sure we could have a great time together.
So, what do you think? Is there still something there after all this time? We're flirting, talking about the good ol' days, agreeing that her bf is inconvenient and we did talk briefly on how we'd be good together. I'm just not sure. Thanks for reading this epic essay. (: