the SILENT Treatment

[kHai]

Okay..Im new here. Signed up just for this coz Im soo confused ryt now. It's about this guy I know. I mean...someone I once knew. Not really my ex coz we didnt have any commitment but we had this thing--special friendship you could say.
I made this poem so u cud have an idea about it. (though it's sort of for him...but its not really intended for him to read it) Sorry...it's really long. hehe. Dont mind about the grammar, ok?! hehe.

It was a few years ago
When I met you
You didn't catch my eye
Coz you seem too fly
Months and months went by
I didn't seem to care for awhile
I was minding my life
I even remember having some crush on another guy

One day, your bestfriend called me
I didn't know what he was up to
I was puzzled while I was approaching both of you
He said "mao ni si nikay" (ENGLISH: THIS IS NIKAY)
And you replied "o, kaila naku niya bai" (ENGLISH: YEAH, I ALREADY KNOW HER)
And then you went back to your work
as quickly as you could
Weird...that's what I was thinking
But I didn't seem to mind
To hell I care with that strange guy.

Weeks after that
I bumped into you again
Sportsfest, that is what I remember then
We've got some common friends
Funny, one of them introduced us again.
And then came October
I was transferred to the project where you were under
On the first week, you asked for my number
I didn't know you much then, so I wondered
I'll be gone for a few days, you said
Asking me for your next sked that's why you'll text.
I was assigned to sit right next to you
Glad you were someone I could somehow relate to
coz you were funny and talkative
or am i just too appreciative?

December
I didn't expect we would get closer
I got the chance to know you alot better
It was then when I saw you danced so well
Damn! you're like a breath of fresh air.
Before Christmas season was through
You gave me that abstract thingy that was made by no less than you
It was really special indeed
And yes, the best gift I ever received.
From that day onwards
My feelings for you did change
From friendship, it developed into somethin' else
Well, you guys probably know what it is...i guess.
We became constant textmates
and often called even if it was already late
Then you invited me for a date
Of course I said yes!
It went on for a couple of months
My life then was like so much fun

Then things suddenly changed
One day you were so sweet,
the next day you were acting like a freak
Although you really didn't say anything
but i knew something was missing.
My world revolved around you
but all of a sudden, you dropped me like a hot potato
You kept your distance, so i kept mine
Trying hard to live life like i was just fine

After a month or two
I realized i needed to stop these tears caused by you
So, i opted to stay away from you and everyone else
just to keep myself from being depress
The night before my last day of work
You came up to me like some kind of flirt
You asked if i did change my number or so
To hell with you, i didn't bother to answer yes nor no
I remember that night
You asked if you could hug me tight
Though I missed it so bad,
I resisted coz I know it wasn't right
I wanted to talk to you but I just couldn't
So, I left you a note instead
Said my goodbye through a pen
coz I felt so shy then

Life after that
was so damn tough
I wanted to surrender
But i know life would one day be brighter
So i lived each day as it is
Hoping one day, missing you would be far from my list
Few months after
God answered my prayer
woke up one day
Finally, with no tears and was happy
Dated an athlete I've always got a crush on
But that's another story I'll share next time with y'all.

It was after a year
I realized I missed my friends real bad
I want the life I used to have
so eventually, I decided to come back
There i saw you again
still on that old ways you're good at..and that is pretending
pretending that you did not see me or anything
but it was okay
i didn't even want to say hi anyway
I have loads of friends to mind about
you were already the last thing i cared about.

Time heals all wounds they say
Finally able to throw those hurts away
Learned to forgive and forget
and not to even have a single regret
Then we started talking
stuffs we've been missing
we became friends again
and that's all that matters in the end

And then you and your girl broke up
..oh i forgot to mention,
he had a girlfriend while we were hanging out.. (BAD..i know!)
you went up to me coz u were in a big trouble and depress
You needed someone to talk to
I was there to listen to you
You asked for my number again
I asked why?! I was hesitant.

Then one late night, I got a text from you
You were abit drunk
You said you were sorry
for all the things you've put me through
for the promises you have broken
never to leave me and everything
I cried for awhile
and replied, it's okay now. Don't mind. I'm fine.
Though it took you a year to apologize
I'm still thankful coz it gave me the peace of mind
You invited me again more than once for an overnight or some kind of a party
i wanted to but i declined
coz I was afraid others would mind.

Yeah..we became good friends again
Laughed, talked, and shared some secrets

But then again one day
you decided not to talk to me again
It's been like more than 2 months now
What's the matter with you?
have i done something that i shouldn't do?
Hope you'll tell me one of these days
coz I am sooo clueless
I'm not sad nor happy
about how our story turned out to be
But if you don't want me as a friend
I'm not gonna wait till the end.

DONT WORRY GUYS....I WOULDN'T LET HIM READ THIS. LOL. BY THE WAY, HE HAS A NEW GIRLFRIEND RIGHT NOW. Yeah...i wont deny i still love him but I never showed to him again that i still do.

[Lite]

Do yourself a favor, get a journal, write down your actual real feelings and thoughts rather than turn it into poems to past into the guy's section. Frankly, we're not going to bother reading it, let alone attempt to interpret what you're trying to infer.

Either lay it out for us straight with associated questions or request for advice, or don't bother.

I'm not being mean, just honest. It's great that you have a creative outlet, but poetry is subject to severe interpretation and frankly, we're guys. Which means we like the up front honest words coupled with what you want from us.