I'm not good with this stuff...

[Silenze]

I guess the first thing to say is hey. I'm here because I want to fight this battle with myself against my recently diagnosed Paranoid Personality Disorder. I've realized how cold and cruel I've been towards others and I want to be able to change that. This is just the first step and it's hard enough, so bare with me.
I'm a paranoid insomniac, quiet and mellow. I usually like to keep to myself.
And not to long ago, I had fallen insanely in love with this girl. We are good friends to this day and I have been slowly inching my way into the next level.
It's hard to explain myself, so I guess can just answer questions, or deal with insults I'll probably be getting.
Hope this place can help me find what has been missing.

[vashti]

Are you being medicated? that would probably be your first step: medication compliance.

[Silenze]

No, there really isn't any real medication for the paranoia. I only take medication for the insomnia.

[vashti]

Sure there is. What sort of doctor diagnosed you?

[Silenze]

My psychiatrist.

[vashti]

Perhaps you aren't affected enough to warrant medication, then.

I assume you are getting psychotherapy, right? I think whatever advice a psychiatrist can give you would be better than what you could get on an internet forum, sweety. Just keep up with the therapy.

[Silenze]

F--- therapy. I've had enough of: "ok son, your a sick child, I'm just going to keep telling you how much of a good kid you are so that someday you can just sick of it and leave me the f--- alone"
I'm not even here for my mental issues. I'm here cause there's a girl out there that I need. I need.
I apreciate the sympathy, but... I hate therapy. I just want people who can help me with... Her.

[iateyourcookie]

You have to help yourself first, then people'll help you with her.