Good stuff man. And I can agree with you that not having a father figure in my life has really left me not very well rounded. It has left me with the fact that when I have a child, I will do my best to be there for him/her though.
As for your child Louisana, you are already at a distinct disadvantage being a single parent and I'm sure you know that it isn't easy. There isn't anything you can do about it though and it sounds like you are doing the best you can. Obviously you still have feelings for this guy, but I think you know the logic that being with him currently isn't the best course of action. I wish there was a way to know if he finally accepted his responsibilities and mistakes as a **** up boyfriend/father, but it doesn't sound like that realization has hit yet.
Waking up next to a beautiful girl,
Step outside and say hello to my beautiful world.