My Ex

**blue** · 21-09-04, 03:11 AM

k so here it goes as some of you know my ex and i have called it quits for good. there has been no contact at all unitl last night. he also made it clear that if i walked away that this was the last time ( now he said that hes not giving up on me on us). The reason we are not together is because of me. I have not been sure about us for quite sometime. at one point in our relationship i felt that i had lost my best friend and that really sucked. I thought that i could always be open about what i was doing and proceded to do things in front of him. i have always been open and honest w/ him. thats all he ever asked for. i guess somewhere things began to get... i dunno i seriously just didnt want to be w/ someone who diaproved of the things i do and who is so judgemental about stupid shit! this created a big wedge because here i thought i had found the one person i could come to w/ anything good or bad and never have to hide who i am or what i do. so i decided that if things are like this now imagine later. on a different note i know that it would be best for me to be alone and thats that, i have to many things going on in my life to have someone disaproving of my every move. & i also cant think of a time in the past 2 years that i have not been in a relationship so i put the stops on everything, even if it meant me loosing someone great. he is a good guy. He told me to leave him alone that this was it and i did & now hes back he says he knows that he has been a real stick in the mud about certain things, that cuz of his actions i see him as some sort of father figure and so on... and yeah this is how i feel i lost my best friend. now he has changed everything he says he knows that i am the girl he will mary. I dont know what he knows but thats not the way i see it. im still young have been maried once and i have a child i have had my fair share of bad relationships i just need a break. so last night he called and told me that he missed me and loved me and if i wanted to go out and have a drink w/him just as friends. I said Yes. Over the weekend i made out with georgia boy and i was stood up and he ended up at some girls house took a xanax and smoked pot! all the things he disaproved so much of! to me it makes no difference. i want to be alone and now he wants me back ahhhhh im so confused about him somtimes i feel like yeah i can spend the rest of my life with this guy and then i dont. i dont belive that things should be done with doubts. well i know my post has been long but thanks for reading. i feel better now.

**BillyGalbreath** · 21-09-04, 03:21 AM

Thats ****ed - My only advice to you is to stop talking to your ex. plain and simple. As soon as he is out of your life, then you will have that much more room for other things to enter your life.

hell, look at me. I got rid of my ex for good. now what have I got ? EVERYTHING ! XD

**blue** · 21-09-04, 03:32 AM

Originally Posted by BillyGalbreath

Thats ****ed - My only advice to you is to stop talking to your ex. plain and simple. As soon as he is out of your life, then you will have that much more room for other things to enter your life.

hell, look at me. I got rid of my ex for good. now what have I got ? EVERYTHING ! XD

i know i know i feel like i have opened a hole new can of worms by answering my phone. i can deal with not talking to him i can i have been doing it with no problems, billy i also didint want us to be enemys ya know. i hate to leave things like that. we have known eacother for almost 9 years! well i dont have to answer my phone you see thats what i mean i dont like to have to feel like anything. i dont like pressure and you know he said that all weekend long he was hoping that i would run into him while i was out on a date and so on and on....thats bullshit! how immature!

**nomas** · 21-09-04, 05:25 AM

The way I see it, azul, is you're thinking with your head and seem to be making the right moves. As long as you think with your head you'll be fine. And I agree with you about not wanting to be enemies...all the negativity and ugliness I try to stay away from too. Nothing like keeping things civil if you can't be friends.

I have confidence in you, though, azul. You'll be fine.

Freddie

**blue** · 21-09-04, 05:31 AM

thanks nomas and y the way i think that you are so hot especially with your head shaved like that/!

**BillyGalbreath** · 21-09-04, 06:11 AM

I'm hot too damnit ! I need to get an updated pic on here tonight - I look kinda different than the pics that are in the galery - I cut my hair really short and i kinda do a skie thing at the top - but its not spikes - idk what to call it - just something i kinda made up and looks pretty good on me.

I'll also post up pics of my boobs for ya, blue !

**nomas** · 21-09-04, 07:17 AM

Originally Posted by blue

thanks nomas and y the way i think that you are so hot especially with your head shaved like that/!

There I go breaking hearts again..DAMN these good looks I was cursed with!!

Ha ha..just kidding, azulita..actually that was total sarcasm because honestly I don't get that a lot..other than my Mom and sisters who by default loose credibility in that respect because..what else are they going to say?? But I don't have an "ugly man" complex...I just think I'm neither hot nor ugly. I'm average. Sometimes I look better than others, sometimes I look worse. Nonetheless, I appreciate the compliment, azulita, that was very nice of you.

But you might take it back because my head is no longer shaved..in fact I was debating growing it long again. Did you see the long haired pics?? It's better to see them live because they were fun..like little springs, heh heh... you say you have curly hair too, right? I think we'd all like to see a pic of you too.

So I try to keep the pics on my page relatively up to date...I usually don't go a month without putting new ones up..so check there to see the progress of my hair. I'm definitely growing it till Christmas,..but after that, we'll just have to see..I'm leaning toward cutting it again.

Freddie

**blue** · 21-09-04, 11:28 PM

yeah i saw the pictures with your hair long wow your hair was long. im letting mine grow out again you look good with your curlz too. my grandma is cuban and indian and my father was cuban and german, i eneded up with the lesser of the curls of the family and with my grandmas softer curls and waves. pic of me are coming soon now worries. im a little comp iliterate.

**I BabyGirl I** · 22-09-04, 01:03 AM

You don't need him, I'll come show you how have a good time haha

**blue** · 22-09-04, 01:32 AM

yes u will!

**I BabyGirl I** · 22-09-04, 02:17 AM

lol... Flordia here I come! LOL

**nomas** · 22-09-04, 02:43 AM

Originally Posted by I BabyGirl I

You don't need him, I'll come show you how have a good time haha

Now when you say "him", are you referring to me or to the ex-boyfriend she started out this thread talking about? Couldn't be both because then you would have said "them".

Oh, man, I hope "him" isn't me...

Freddie

**BillyGalbreath** · 22-09-04, 03:14 AM

i think "him" is you nomas - but i am assuming since she was talking about YOU on the previous post to that one.

**nomas** · 22-09-04, 03:27 AM

I'm sure it is, man, it was just wishful thinking..heh heh..

Freddie

**I BabyGirl I** · 22-09-04, 03:39 AM

No I was talking about her Xboyfriend!

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