My best friend (:

[coolwater11]

ok ok, this is stupid but i cant think of a better way to know if this just normal and all.
First of all, I am not lesbian or anything like that, and im not against it (: i think if u found someone that makes u happy then you should be with him/her no matter if they are both of the same sex
but like i said before, i am not lesbian so dont start the haters comments cuz theyre all out of place here.

I met my best friend like 5 years ago and we really click in the first time we speak, cuz were so different but so unique soo (: its like any gooddamn girl friendship that every girl have with someone. so i love her, shes amazing
but 1 year ago my best friend that ive got a big crush on him confessed to me that he was in love with my best friend and i just couldn�t take it because i love her soo much but i liked him soo much at the same time.. so.. he noticed that i didnt like that (even though i didnt really say anything to him) and because i didnt wanted to say to him that i like him and i was jealous, i said i wasnt ready to let my best friend (the girl) to have a boyfriend cuz it seems that the most important person in her life is me (and i really mean it) soo i tell him that i was jealous, even though i supported him but in the end she didnt accepted him cuz she couldnt look at him in that way.
and that was it.

ok ok the question is here, after that we started to hang out so much more than in the past and i just realized that I like the way we are now, i dont want that if someday she gets a boyfriend she might no be here with me all the time she is now, im just really gotted used to it, and im kinda jealous! but i dont like her physically neither sexually, i just love her, and i want her to be happy & get marry cuz i want that for me 2, but im scared that if someday im not her number one anymore i might get hurt and i dont like that to happen..
so.. ok ok now the question.. Am i the only person that have this problem?? and if u do.. what should i do? (: thank you soo much
(and sorry for my english, its not my first language lolz sorry for the spelling U(: )