In the midst of this drama going down with my sister vs my aunt and cousin my cousin called my sister and I out as being, "Heartless, bratty bitches who didn't love grandma because neither of you shed a tear at her funeral."
True on the crying part. I didn't cry at my grandma's funeral. I prefer to grieve on my own terms and when I do cry its a personal/private thing for me. I guess my parents really drilled into us to never cry when we were growing up. I do show my other feelings when they arise such as anger/happiness but not to a huge degree. I'm no wet blanket but I'm not a spaz either. I guess I'm reserved?
Anyway, so I don't cry publically. Do I have feelings? Yes, I do but try to have control over them. It got me to thinking that when my bf's girls left for the summer I didn't cry in front of them or him. I did cry by myself on the car ride back to my house. Am I suppose to feel like a shitty woman?
I guess I don't see why its frowned upon to not be a basket of emotions in front of others? I open up here a lot but in real life I don't disclose a whole lot and I don't let "my guard" down a lot in front of just anyone.
Your thoughts....