Originally Posted by
adedot
i recently haven't been able to sleep well because i developed a strong feeling for a girl, it got to the stage where i had to type to my laptop asking it for advice because i didn't know who else to talk to. this below is the conversation i had with my laptop and i believe it would explain my situation better.
Love, what is the true definition of love? Is it this heavy feeling I have in my heart every time I think about her? Or is it how hearing her voice seems to put a smile on my face?
I have never been a strong believer in true love and I doubted my ability to actually fall in love at this tender age, but for some reason this girl has set my theory on fire and dropped a nuke on it. This emotion that i am feeling i have no straight forward way of explaining it, i don’t know if I’m happy or sad about it, I can’t fall asleep because of it, it feels like a burden and like a blessing, makes me want to cry and makes me want to smile. I feel like my chest, my heart, my soul is not mine anymore, my chest feels like it’s going to implode, i have tried so many time to convince myself it’s just a phase you’ll soon get over her it’s just a crush but i feel like im lying to myself. Why her???
She says the dumbest things lol she is an absolute douche, she eats soo slow, she likes food i would not touch with my toe, she punches me too much, she loves red things ( i hate red ) We are so different, she’s like balloon and im like door, balloons and door have ‘nothing’ in common but for strange reason all of this makes me want her more. She is oh so beautiful, she has such a bright smile, looking at her always reminds me the most beautiful night sky i have ever seen, that full moon with a majestic presence, those stars accompanying it and they all shone so hypnotizingly. I do not lack confidence when it comes to approaching a girl but i cannot seem to tell this particular girl how i feel, how hard is it to say erm.. i really like you, or maybe i have a strong feeling for you or why not even I LOVE YOU. I have attempted to tell her several times but i always chicken out and turn into my usual clowny self. Now that sixth form has ended i feel like i might never get a chance to tell her how i truly feel, not seeing her appears to make me love her more and more and it hurts so bad, i swear love is meant to be a wonderful feeling, this in a way kinda sucks. I not going to say she’s the girl of my dream coz frankly the girl of dream is Beyonce or Jessica Alba but little did i know it was gonna be a normal person that would captivates my soul, if i could punch my soul id kick its butt so bad. Damnn Love is tough on a brother, now what the hell do i do? Its 5am i still can’t sleep because i can’t get her out of my head, i need a way to fix this because i really really enjoy my sleep so Help.
Erm... nothing?? Well anyway thx Acer aspire 5542 you’ve been an awesome listener.