Stalking? is that normal?

[holdinghands]

I dont know what happen to me.
Everyday, i keep looking on My boyf ex girlfriend's twitter.
I know its sick. But i cant handle it. seriously.
Is that normal?
Actually me and my boyfriend have been together for almost 3 years.
and I'm pretty sure he is tottally over her long long time ago.
but i dont know WHYYY.
is it a mind disease? or something?
I got jealous of her. Jealous of her life.
I cant stop compare my self to her about anything..and every single thing.
Her style, her friends, her activity, her new boyfriend.. oh my goodness..
You know what? I admit in some way, I more than her. ANd that makes me happy.
I'm prettier than her, But she's more clever than me.
Lets say that she studied in Harvard, and I only studied in Stanford. This reality is sucks you know?
But, the more I feel better, the more I'm looking for new things that I'm not more than her.
I know I should stop. But I cant.
Can you just explain what the hell is happened to me? Is this normal?
please help me.
I never ever tell this to anyone, even my bestfriend. this is humilliating.
I really need someone to talk to. Someone that is not on my circle, so i can tell her/him anything.
I hope by joining this forum, I can feel like i have a new friend that i can share anything.

[Mish]

It sounds like you are just insecure, you don't feel good in your own skin, I think it has little to do with that other girl that you feel jealous off. What can you do to stop it? Find a way to like yourself for who you are. Do something good for others, do things that you believe a respectworthy person would do, so you will start to respect yourself.

[adam95]

yeah you're really insecure. but why? you do admit that your in a way better than her right?
she's your bf's ex. your bf is with you and not her. there really is no relation between you guys. you have to try and stop finding out what shes doing. why do you want to be better than her anyway? find out the reason and im sure you'll see how silly it is. im sure your way better than most people out there, you dont have to compare yourself to others.

[holdinghands]

Yes, insecure might be the answer.
Even I know exactly there's nothing to be insecure..
i think its just my ego..to find out that she's nothing compare to me.
OhMyGod..I'm so disgusting!

In the first year of our relationship. I wasnt like this.
Until she contacted my boyfriend and ask him to comeback to her. but she got denial from my boyf.
I felt like pity on her, you know? After a year, and she couldnt get over my boyf.

And the weirdest thing is, One night, I knew that myboyf, she, and their friends stayed over together in a friend house.
I was okay, because i trusted him.
At that night, I got dream about she asked my boyf to comeback.Very silly.
3 days after that, my boyf told me about what happened at the night they stay over together..he told me that she asked him to back in a realtionship with her.But, he denied her.
And i said : "OHMYGOD. I wanna told you that 3 days ago , I dream about her wanted to get back with you, but i think that's too silly to share with you. Thats why i didnt tell you about the dream."
he said : really? at the same time?
me : yeahh.. and thats bothering me enough. But I thought it was just a dream. in that dream, I could looked at you two. I saw her crying and asked you to comeback with her.
my boyf : Oh, she was not crying at that time.But how come you could look at me? in what time was that?
me : about 3 or 4 in the morning. Because I was awaken at 5. and i told Angel (my friend) about the dream at the morning. and she said if you dreamed in the early morning, it might be real.
my boyf : shoot, you're right. she asked me around 3 or 4 in the morning.
me : oh my god.. weird.
me and my boyf was laughing hard at that time.

Weird, tho?
After that, I always wanted to know about her. About what she felt to my boyf. all about her.
sooo tiring!

[Mish]

Well, if she's been making advances to your bf then I think it's understandable that you see her as a threat. But really, you are the lucky one here. The guy is with you and she got rejected twice, you have nothing to fear from her so why be obssessed with her?.

[holdinghands]

Well, if she's been making advances to your bf then I think it's understandable that you see her as a threat. But really, you are the lucky one here. The guy is with you and she got rejected twice, you have nothing to fear from her so why be obssessed with her?.

i dont know why. thats why I'm asking 'is this a normal behaviour?'
or theres something wrong in my mind..
well, anyway, my frequent to see her twitter timeline is decreasing.
really glad about that!
wish i could \get out from this humilliating disease

[girl68]

GET OFF TWITTER- that's how.