Hi I'm new here guys and i need help. This will be long.
I am in high school in 10th grade and ive never had a gf b4. I met this girl in 6th grade (she was in 5th) and started to talk a little when i was in 8th and she was 7th. Now i have found myself having crushes on girls b4 but they werent serious. In fact i found myself saying maybe i'll meet that one girl when she comes to high school next year. Well guess what, she is in 1 of my classes and i sit right next to her. i found myself able to talk to her (im very shy) and she always has (shes very open, friendly and the nicest girl ive ever met). I had a small crush and i thought it would pass but instead it got bigger and now i find myself thinking about her 24/7 for almost 1 month and a half now. im going to go insane. She has everything i want in a girl and the only thing different is that shes open and im shy. She is really involved in her class and im not, she has ALOT of friends and i dont. Im also worried about my weight. Now i kinda freeze up while talking to her. All i want is for me just to tell her how i feel. Its not like i can just say "hey, i really like you." I cant pull her aside. I think she has given me signs that she likes me or she's just being extremely friendly like always. I am definitely not going to ask for her phone # coz i wouldbe too shy to even pick up the phone or even ask for it in the first place. I know that i cant just wait for her to say it because i was talking about the class we had when i was in 8th grade and i mentioned the guy she talked to all the time while i sat behind her. She said "i used to have the biggest crush on him" and she never once asked him the enitre semester. I know for a fact that she doesnt like him now. She knows that i am really shy anyway. sometimes i cant think clearly and i get nervous throughout the day even right now. I always build up the courage to tell her but when i see her, its gone and i say well i screwed up again and im here to say that today. I cant think how i will ever tell her how i feel. Pulling her aside and telling her is too embarrassing. I want to write her a really good note, but how would i ever hand that over to her. If i did the note thing then how would i ever walk in the class and just sit next to her while shes thinking about it and even worse, when she refuses. However, we will change desks soon. PLZ HELP ME I NEED YOU GUYS! I JUST NEED TO TELL HER BADLY! I NEED HER AND I LOVE HER! Dont tell me just to walk up and say it or tell me to give little clues because it wont work.![]()