Ive been with my boyfriend now since the 11th of november 2OO8, so its our 2year anniversary in just 17days. Throughout our relationship, weve had some horrible times -
Firstly, I found naked pictures of a girl he knew on his laptop. Then after I let that go, I found sexual texts between him and her. Then after I let that go, I found out hed gotten drunk and slept with her. Since then Id been extraordinarily paranoid obviously... But I then found another MSN conversation between him and a girl who fancied him, in which he was telling her she was "gorgeous" and that he wishes he could spend "forever" with her. Even typing it makes me feel sick. Bu he denied having the conversation and that somebody must have hacked into his account and had the conversation, which I dont believe but I had no way of proving different. 3months later I was then told by his best friends girlfriend that shed made out with my boyfriend. Her and me had never had any qualms in the past, so I believed her. The story was then also supported by another 3people that were present at the time, yet he still continued to lie and deny the story.
So on top of cheating on me at least 3times (probably more) he attempts to accuse me of cheating when hes never even heard any rumours and Ive done nothing but remain loyal to him. He believes Ive cheated simply out of paranoia because hes done the same to me.
I dont like admitting it, but hes also pushed me around in the way that hes backhanded me across the face and smacked my head into a wall when hes been angry.
Im not happy in the relationship, but I cant seem to leave him. I have all of my friends supporting me so I dont understand why Im incapable of leaving him. I think its because weve been together for this long, I cant imagine life without him and I dont know how I would say it to him because whenever Ive spoken about breaking up, hes said "I love you so much, Ill do anything to prove it to you." and so on and so forth. And I cant ever say no.
Please, I need help so much ♥