So.... I finally finished finals and to get rid of stress, i went nuts on tequila and got drunk like no other. I have a bad tendency to drunk call people. I ended up calling up my crush who I have liked for the past 4-5 years. Mind you, we grab dinner from time to time only if he's in the neighborhood; otherwise, we dont talk because we're both workaholics and we're just too busy for a social life. He's 28 and I'm 21. Anyways, i ended up confessing to him because well, I was drunk and I just didnt give a crap about what would happen afterwards. I told him that I understood that he has a lot of things going on right now and he has a lot on his place. I complained how he is just a hard person to get to know and I'm really social... but when i'm around him, I just freeze up and our conversations are just whatever. i told him how much I admired him and how much I liked how passionate he was with what he does for a living. I also said how I knew after this phone call, I know he will pretty much not contact me ever again and that was okay. Life is short and I only live once so what the hell right? He told me he was very speechless and will check up on me the next morning to see if I was okay and alive. Now obviously, I wasnt expecting anything from him... I just told him how i felt. I realized what I did the next morning, but for some reason, I dont regret saying all this to him. Ive been keeping this to myself for so long and I just wanted to let it all out. I most likely ruined this "friendship" that I had going on with him right? Sigh.
It took me 10 shots of tequila to fully confess to the guy I liked for 4-5 years. Great.