Okay so here I am with yet another love problem in my life and I would like some input!
I have a really good friend. We have been friends for 2 years now and she is dating one of my best friends. She has an older sister who has been dating this guy for over 4 years now. The older sister (the one I am feeling very strongly towards) loves spending time with me and over the last year we have gone out for drinks gone clubbing or just had dinner together. Come to think of it I am surprised this didn't happen earlier. Anyways to try to keep this short, last week we had dinner and then went out for drinks and ended up back at her place had a few beers and watched a movie. We ended up making out very heavily pretty much took it as far as we could without actually making love. Pretty much she said she has had these feelings since she met me the first day but she knew that if this would ever happen it would just get complicated and I guess girls are good at hiding that shit! I am crazy about this girl... She is all I can think about and I want to be with her and I know she wants to be with me... but of course she has a boyfriend... I feel bad (just a little) because he is a nice guy but he is definitely not one of my friends. I know she must still have some feelings for him and I know that the more I see her the more she will want to be with me. So I guess what I am asking all u complete strangers is would you follow your heart and not let this girl go and let everything come together as I am sure it will but it will take time since a week ago she was happily with this guy and now shit is ****ed... because I want to be with her and she with me.
The problem really with all of this is that they have been together for 4 years and I wonder if I just backed off now if I could save their relationship and just move onto the next girl like I do so well... I just really feel so strong for this girl I know that now that I have gone this far it's either never see her again or go for it and take millions of risks.
Another problem is that her sister (the one with my friend) hooked me up with a few of her friends and shit didn't work out. So really I feel like if she finds out that her sister left her boyfriend of 4 years for me she will want to kill me. The older sister who I really knows everything about me everything I have done everyone I have been with and still looks at me like I am hot shit. I feel I already know that I can't let this amazing girl leave my life but I wanna hear how horrible of a person I am if I do wind up with this girl... **** my heart! thanks for reading...