So although I have so many questions, I will start with just this one. First some history... I find myself in a loving caring relationship... Just not one built on trust or respect....I also find myself in a situation where I feel I have no voice. If we get into any type of disagreement, it always ends with his monologue and me pretty sure that I am the town idiot. I don't know how to get my point listened too. So here I am hoping that this will give me the stage as it were to express and organize my thoughts and feelings, who knows maybe someone has an answer I can't see for the nose on my face. Okay so I said I would start with one question. I am a very sexual woman. I like it. All the time. Recently I have felt as if I am less desirable to my BF. He says its him, that he has gained weight, I am not sending the right signals, That its not true he wants me more now then he ever has. I was trying to understand, trying to be supportive. I was recently playing on my computer and stumbled onto a porn sight that I know he frequents. I am so okay with that. However I am pretty sure he left our bed to go and look at this porn. So I asked him. He said I might have but don't remember, He remembers going on TSN, He remembers going to a few tech sites he frequents, but looking at porn he just can't remember. Okay, I guess, having a forgetful mind it happens. The thing is about a month ago I woke him up as I was well playing with myself and he was so mad, he yelled, kicked his feet, jumped up and down telling me that it made him feel as if I don't want him, that he doesn't please me, that... well I think you get the jist... So here is my question... Am I overreacting? Should I expect a response when I touch him? Should it be okay with me that he leaves our bed to look at porn? And can't remember if he did or not? Okay so there is more then one question... But I am pissed... But am I justified in my pissyness?