Hi everyone,
I used to post here when my bf first broke up with me and everyone was very very helpful. I am doing a lot better nowdays compared to before. This was my first bf, first love and first breakup. He left me telling me that he doesn't think he treated me that well, and I deserve better, and that he wanted to be single and focus on his work and not keep getting me upset because of that.
It has been 6 months since the breakup, and we run into each other every few months due to work reasons, and make conversation. He will randomly msg me, but not say much at all. When we do run into each other, he'll tell me I smell good, and he still has that shy, smile on his face that he had when we first met and used to talk.
Anyway, the rejection of the whole breakup is still heatbreaking to me. The fact that I wasn't good enough for him to stick around gets me down. I try to focus on completing univ, and taking care of myself and hanging out with friends etc., but I think about him a lot. We had a lot of fun memories in my apartment, and quite often I'll have flashbacks of these memories while just hanging around my place. I physically miss holding and kissing him so much, that it takes all my strength not to contact him. I've been going on with what feels like a hole in my heart for 6 months now, and it feels exhausting. I know that he was a terrible bf to me, and yet, I miss him so much. Is it normal to feel this way after all this time? Is the only way to fix this is to find another bf? How else do you fill that void of loving someone to not having anyone to love?
Thanks for listening...I thought talking about this would help relieve some of the burden I feel sometimes. Good luck to you all.
-Hope