this guy that I was with for almost four years brike up with me 4 months ago and now he has a new girlfriend and told me they were serious. This same guy was the one who promised to marry me and said hurtful things to me that I can't seem to get over. I keep remebering how he left me crying when he was cruel to me and broke up, I rember now how he still wanted sex with me and said he wasn't in love with me, he told me there was nothing special about me whatsover and said that I was a whore and slut and that I wasn't about sh*t. all I did was love him and want to be there for him. I didn't realize how much my self worth went down after he broke up with me, I do not contact him or call him at all, it really hurts too bad to do so. I feel really worthless, ithink back at all the hurtful things he has said to me and how he acused me of sleeping with his own father and brother and even guys that we passed on the street, it hurts me. he made me feel like I was the most worthless female to ever walk the face of the earth. I remember all the things he would do like sniff my panties and my privates and it really made me feel like sh*t, and the constant blame on how it was my fault that he broke up with me because I was baisicly sneaky and coniving and things with me and his father just didn't add up. I have never had anyone break me down and make me feel as worthless as he has done and I just realized that just now. this guy took my virginity and makes me feel like sh*t, what can I do to help myself and bring my selfesteem back? he made me feel like it was my lost and that I would never get him back. I relay hate that I cry every night having to feel this way because the hurtful things he said to me stuck.