Need advice

[BJM]

Hello everyone

I need an unbiased opinion about the situation I'm about to explain. I've asked friends about it, but I'd rather get an honest opinion from someone that doesn't know the guy, or myself.
Here's the scenario..it's a little complicated btw, lol.

In early March, a male friend and I exchanged phone numbers. I've known him for quite some time through mutual friends, and not to mention I was friends with his sister in highschool. I always thought he was a sexy guy, but I NEVER in a million years considered the thought of talking to him, because I honestly felt as if he was way out of my league. I thought he was too good for me.

He's always been the cordial, polite type of person. He and I would say hi to each other occasionally on Facebook and Twitter. One day I made a comment to him on twitter (subliminally flirting) and it generated one heck of a response from him. He inboxed me saying how surprised he was that I was flirting with him, and he quickly gave me his phone number. If this was a few years ago I probably would've been ecstatic at the fact that HE gave me his number, but I've grown up alot, so things like that don't really excite me anymore.

When he gave me his number to text/call him, I saved it in my phone not thinking anything major would come of it. He had told me from the beginning that he had a girlfriend, and I'm not one to get in the middle of a relationship. It's actually something I refuse to do. With that being said, I planned on just sending an occasional "hello" text every now & then. I expected us to not have anything in common, and I expected him to be very arrogant. I thought if anything we'd just be cool, nothing more. Boy was I wrong about it all.

That same night he gave me his number, I text messaged him & there was an INSTANT connection. Something that I've never had with a guy before. He was everything that I was looking for in a potential boyfriend. He told me how he always thought I was a very beautiful girl, but he was too modest to ever pursue me, said he didn't wanna get rejected. To make a long story short, we would text all day long, talk or video chat for HOURS at a time practically every night..it was great. There was a deep emotional connection. We kissed ONLY ONCE, but I felt fireworks :-) I know it sounds cheesy. Our feelings for one another were growing quickly. He would tell me everyday that he was beginning to really like me ALOT, and he was falling for me. He was so genuine & forthcoming. Here's where it gets complicated and bitter/sweet. In the midst of all this, he HAD A GIRLFRIEND. I knew my feelings for him were only going to grow deeper, so I had to put our "situation" into perspective. It was really bothering me that he had a girlfriend, just wasn't sitting right with me. I knew he's someone I can see myself with, but I didn't want to continue with this knowing he had a girlfriend because I feel like I'd end up getting majorly hurt in the end. So, I basically told him I wasn't going to continue our friendship any longer. He was upset, and he even text me a few days after that telling me that he genuinely likes me, & he didn't intend for anyone to get hurt from this, and hd hopes all is well with me.

I left it at that. I thought about him 24 hours a day..nonstop. I was very bummed out, because I finally found a guy that connected with me on an emotional & mental level. It sucked because neither of us expected it to go this far. I expected to never hear from him, so I tried to move on. 2 weeks later he text me randomly saying he's been thinking about so he decided to reach out. Also said he still really likes me, and misses me. It was great hearing from him, but his texts were very distant this time. He wasn't very talkative. We both ended up falling asleep texting one another. So I decided to text him the next day. He was very dry again. He just didn't seem like himself. It frustrated me because if he didn't want to talk, then he shoulda never wasted his time reaching out to me FIRST! wasn't like I initiated the contact.

But anyway, I asked him could we talk on the phone that night..he told me he couldn't because he'd be with his gf that night. I got so frustrated, and told him "u know what I give up". He text back asking "we can't talk another time???" I never responded back to him. 2 days later I decided to text him again saying hello. He didn't respond. I text again a few hours later..no response. I even wrote him on twitter asking why he's ignoring me and what did I do wrong to him...no response..NOTHING. That was 3 wks ago & I haven't heard from him since. He really hurt my feelings by doing that because I sit & wonder what I did for him to just ignore me like that, as if I'm nothing. Maybe he's upset because I never responded back to him that night??

So here's my question to u all..

Should I just leave it alone? Or should I try to contact him again to see what happened & take it from there??
Part of me is saying to leave it alone, & if it's meant for us to speak again then he'll reach out to me first, being that I tried to talk to him but he ignored me. The other part of me is saying to try one last time, & apologize for ignoring him like that..and if it blows up in my face then at least I'll know I TRIED. Rather than walking around thinking.."what if I did this, or said this"

Advice everyone????
Sorry this is so long, but I have NO ONE to talk about this to.
-Brianna

[IndiReloaded]

He's got a girlfriend. What are you doing?