how to handle myself and my guy NOW?????

[billi1]

i m in LDR for the last three years..... we deeply madly inlove with eachother.... sumthing happened 2 years ago that created lots n lots of troubles for both of us ... and eventually we had to get departed cuz NOW our families would nt let us get together ever again....but love was so strong that we could nt resists and we could not move on and we got back together but with a COMPROMISING Adjustment abut future that we know we are not going to be married ever ...but we are with each other till the sum miracle happens or destiny allow us.... NOW we are more open in communications and we are more intimate...... we discuss our problems and we plan to meet each other and when we meet Passion and Romance is at peak.........we never get enough of each other... since we are in LDR, so we keep chatting thru mobile messenger almost 5 hours a day during our office timings and we take daily reports of eachother's time and deep interest od everything... and honestly speaking its all more from my guy....( the problem that would not let us get married also had arisen from his family, he had to surrender and accept to let his love for me go n he had faced extreme humiliation and pressure as well).........

now the issue is that he deliberately holds his emotions back and avoids being very lovy dovy ...when i complain he says if i start doing the same, we will end up getting extremely emotional so we would suffer in future when ultimately we would be departed.....
but that makes me insecure and i fight with him ..then he assures me of his love and another thing is he gets annoyed if i asks questions abt feelings or emotional aspect of some actions or any emotional question.he asks me not to ask these questions ...for example i ask : ur with me because u love me or its just ur guilt??nad it pisses him off...and my baby says he all the time feels that i m nt by his side although i assures him .... he says he feels that i judge him and put him under accountability ...although i just asks him emotionally deep questions cuz i want to assure that he loves me deeply ( as he claims),,,,,, but he says he feels i put him in court.......... and its been two weeks now we almost daily fight and he says ok i m leaving.... then next day he comes to chat again.... i m very upset abt my behavior ... i know i pisses him off...i bleieve that he loves me truly ... but since i get insecure because i knw we dont have future together now... i keep on asking questions and he says u touch my wounds which are yet open and nt healing.....i dnt know wat do i do? my babay gets verrry disappointed and let down and then he yells at me..... i dnt want this at all.... i just emailed him and asked to forget everything lets be lovers again .... but i know i will apologize and after two days i will do the same ...thats just my insecurity..... and i keep doing wat he hates.... wat shud i do

[sadie_genie]

Why bother if there is no future?

[Wakeup]

because i knw we dont have future together now

because i knw we dont have future together now

because i knw we dont have future together now

because i knw we dont have future together now

because i knw we dont have future together now

Keep reading that and ask yourself why you're torturing yourselves by keeping in touch via electonic means only. YOU. ARE. WASTING. YOUR. LIFE. by clinging to this useless union. You will never be anything to this man but a "chat buddy" so why don't you allow both yourselves to cut the cord and end this farce right now so that you both can begin to focus on people that you will actually be able to have a future with?

Your "relationship" has no foundation. Why keep up the pretense?

I repeat:

because i knw we dont have future together now