what to do what to do

[sentinel123]

i am 60 years old feel 25 i am in love with my first love and forst ever crush and girlfriend since the fourth grade. fate separated us many many years ago and now we have reunited anfter what seems like an eternity . my problem is that she hasnt seen me and im sure still believes i am close to what i used to be . well in recent years only . almost as if fate that evil sumbiich has carefully taken hand and cause me physical damage. from which has resulted in only the past five years caused me to gain a lot of weight . im sure its a miracle in its self i am still alive to write this . it happened so fast and i know no one is to blame except my self for allowing it to happen . even though that little bastard fate also had a hand in it . i feel i should spil my guts get it over with and let her go once again since i dont think it fair to allow her to dream of us getting back together for our remaining time here . i have become something i would not wish on anyone . im fat and my body disgusts me . no i dont comdemn or hate or make fun of fat people never once in my life . always felt sorry for them and prayed that i would never get that way . well somehow i did . so do i tell her hey im fat and know you wouldnt want me or shouldnt have to love me because of what i am like now . i know some will say if she really loves you it wont matter but we all know down inside that we dont want to be that way nor would we want our partner in life to be that way especially if this person thinks you still look the same . shouldnt i not wait another moment and tell her and gracefully accept it and remain friends so she doesnt have any false hopes of being together in love again . it is heartbreaking for me knowing i cant have her now that i have a chance after all these decades of wondering and loving her waiting to see if she still felt the same . life is truly unfair for this is the unfairest blow of all life has delivered to me . makes me want to scream

[Dank]

Don't lose hope , do something about it go gym... you got your last shot go for it. Goodluck ..