I kissed a girl (first kiss) who likes two guys, me and a close friend. I like her like crazy but the other guy thinks that she's annoying. After the first couple kisses, I asked her about who she liked and she said it was both of us still but said this: "he's that little nagging feeling in the back of my mind. but for the most part, you're kind of always on my mind." I like her a lot lot and my main thinking now is that her still liking this other guys is a measure of how much she likes him: equal to or more than me, since we've been through a lot compared to with the other guy and yet she still gets mind****ed when this other guy ignores her for a bit or whatever.
Recently at this social gathering when four of us were under the moon at this hill on blankets, I refused to cuddle with her, which we always did in the past before I found out about her double crush, and even though she kept on playing with my hair or lying on my chest, I never did anything back. She was noticeably sad and our last farewell that night was a light "pat-on-the-back" hug, where it usually would have been a kiss. It's one of the last occasions where we can meet up as we did.
I'm confused as to whether I should have been irritated or not by her liking this other guy too although she says that it's a very small thing. I don't know if I should have acted the way I should. My friend said that if I had any self-respect, I would have done what I did that night since she messes with my mind and (he thinks) likes the other guy still. Your thoughts? This is my first semi-girlfriend and I'm an upperclassman in high school.