Hi all
ill try to keep this as short as poss
I went to school with a girl untill she moved away + i didnt see her for a few years, we neve realy spoke at school but we bvumped into each other when we were 17 + got on like a house on fire + there was a definate spark, we spent all of our time together but didnt take it any further, she met a guy had a baby + after a while they split up
When i was 19 i had a very bad accident + was in a bad way in hospital, she came in to see me + i later found out how much she had been thinking about me + how upset she was seeing me so ill
we got together after a came out of hospital + things were amazing, there was instant love + it felt like everything was perfect, we told eachother how much we felt + never hid anything words of love were always said, then after about 6 months she just said 1 day that she didnt love me with no reason what so ever
she then met a bloke who she had twins with who hurt her, upset her + lied to her which she couldnt take anymore although she kept trying to make it work
were 24 now, recently got in touch + i went round hers to see her + watch a film etc, the look in her eyes, the touch in her hand + they way that she was with me was amazing
after 3 days she was telling me how she regrets ever letting me go + that she has always loved me + she just didnt realise how much, i showed her all the love + respect she could ever want, she always told me how much she loved me + that we would always be ok as we have each other + that nothing will get between us
Monday i went to see my children which i had a while back with an ex, that morning she was fine + told me again how much she loved me, sunday night she assured me that we are solid
Monday eve when i went to hers she just said its not working, i dont love you + dont want to be with you in a very cold way without showing any care or emotion + gave no reason why
she says she does not want to see me as it makes things harder if i stay in touch
I just dont understand
she wont even give it a chance to see if she does feel anything
the way i see it is that she is scared + hiding what she feels + if she had no feelings at all she wouldnt have a problem in seeing me as it wouldnt affect her
she wrote me a long note to keep in my wallet saying how much she felt + how much she wanted to spend her life with me, she took it yesterday + would not let me have it
please help me, im so lonely + longing for her its unreal
James