in love with my older female best friend

[Drumzzz]

hey
i'm not even 20 but i never had a girlfriend before (and it eats me up inside)

but there's this place i go to for about 3 years now
there i met a girl who's 6 years older than me
in the past 6 months we became really really close (i think)
she even told me about her problems with her boyfriend (they're together for a couple years now + he's a bit a friend of mine) and in the next month she'll decide wether or not that relation goes on

i have a slight depression so she's also one of the 2 people i talk to (but i get the feeling i'm annoying her with it)
now i can't stop thinking about her, i want to be with her and we have pretty much physical contact but when that short contact stops i just want to hug her again
so i think i know what's going on here but as you can see there are some problems:
-her boyfriend who i consider a friend
-the age gap (if i were the older one it would be not so bad but here it's the opposite)
-there are others after her

so now i'm a bit confused and i don't know what to do anymore
should i fight it more than i do now? should i tell her? do i never see her again? ...
is there anybody who can help me with this?

[jb1111983]

Sorry mate, I think she considers you just a friend. Not sure it can work out with you. There's nothing in your post that suggests she has any interest in you other than that of a friend.

[Ric]

The risk is your own to decide. As JB says, your post doesn't particularly suggest she has a romantic interest in you, but you don't know for sure till you confess your own feelings.
If you want to do that I'd suggest you to wait till she decides to break up with her current relationship, and then ask her out on a friendly date. Just take her to the movies or whatever to get her mind off of things.
She might give some hints as to whether she likes you or not, and otherwise she'll appreciate the friendship.
Don't make any actual moves on her until a few months after break up. Otherwise it's just an extra risk of her not respecting you for jumping on her the first chance you get.

But again, that risk is your own as well. She might quickly find someone else if you don't quickly take the bait.

I wouldn't worry about the age gap. I assume you're 19? Making her 25. That's really not that big a deal unless you make it a big deal.

[Drumzzz]

the problem is also that i don't have the gift to recognize things like wether or not she's interested in me...
we talk, we text alot (but most of the time it's me starting it), sometimes she's all over me (but i noticed she doesn't do it when her boyfriend is around, maybe cause i made him jalous 1 time), after she went on vacation she came to me and told me she missed me, ...
you mean things like that? (feel free to ask questions if it helps you)

so you think i should wait till she breaks up with him (IF she does) and then take her out and tell her how i feel?
cause now she home alone a lot and i already told her to do something together but she asked someone else to come with us, problems are: he likes her too much too (he already told her as long as she's in a relation he won't do a thing) and she thinks he's hot but she doesn't see a future in it + now we're not alone anymore

i really have no idea what to do