So, I thought after reading people's posts in this and other variety of sites/forums that I would feel better, but I just can't seem to find anything to do to NOT think about him. I work full-time but today as I had off, I have absolutely no plans. I don't have any money to spend, certain friends I haven't told about my breakup yet because they're too busy and just don't feel like seeing them, the only things I like to do is read, watch movies, eat, and sleep! I know, pathetic, I'm quite the introvert. I managed to leave my house today to visit my cat at my moms house and to the bank, that's it! I've looked online for things to do, certain people know about my breakup but I'm sure they're sick of hearing about my pity party lol
Earlier on Facebook (we're still 'in a relationship' on fb, he doesn't go on it too much and im not showing Ive been on it by ignoring my wall posts) I saw he was attending this Halloween music thing (which he bought me a ticket) to go. It was one of those press "attend" and it automatically shows up in your newsfeed, it really hurt. I definitely don't plan on going to it. We were even supposed to go snorkeling next week and attend his friend's Battle of the Bands event.
I feel like he's moved on with his life (as he broke up with me saying he doesn't want to hurt me anymore) and he has roommates and lots of friends. I live alone, only talk to some of my co-workers at work, but I don't really have anything in common with any of them (sometimes even my own friends bc they party a lot) I don't want to drink either as that always ends up in emotional misery. I even went on WikiHow.com to read articles on how to be single and get over breakups, but this feeling of loneliness and missing him and wondering if he's thinking about me or if he'll call is just misery for me. What do you guys do? I don't play sports and im not active, don't want to run into my ex either at bars/downtown/music scene.
I also feel like I have thise false hope in my head that I need to get rid of. I think to myself, how can he not miss me? I'm sure in some ways he does, but he's the one that said "it's over, i have to move on. you deserve someone who can give you what you want" ugh....