Hi! I apologize ahead of time for the length of this post. So I'm 25 and I met this guy on an online dating site, he's going to be 29 really soon. The website is for people looking to get married, so fairly serious. Anyway, I found him on the website in September and messaged him. He messaged back and we exchanged some e-mails and he asked to meet. Here's how it's gone:
Date 1 - 3-4 hours. Dinner and a walk. Really good, I thought we hit it off well.
We texted back and forth after and then I offered to buy him dinner and he agreed.
Date 2- 5 hours. Dinner and drinks. Again, really nice, by the length of the date i think it's clear we had a great time.
Around after here, I felt that I was always taking initiative to meet up. He was about to go to on vacation for 2 weeks and I wanted to see him a good amount before then. So I asked him when we'd meet again, and he said he was booked on weekends but we could do a weekday. So we set up a date. However before that date, on a friday night, turned out we were both out and he hinted that we might "bump" into each other. So we kind of decided to meet up.
Date 3 - 4 hours. Drinks. It was fun, we got tipsy, he had lots of chances to kiss me, but he did not.
Date 4- 2 hours. Dinner. It was great, he did admit that he was talking to another girl. I was a little hurt, but I knew it was part of the dating thing.
After this he was gone for two weeks. Before he left we were texting constantly, a lot of it was initiated by me, but obviously he kept it going. We emailed a little when he was away, but it was always initiated by me. SO i felt maybe I was just being too clingy. So i decided to back off and once he returned, I wasn't messaging him much, until finally he messaged me and even asked to meet up!
Date 5 - 3 hours. Drinks. I got pretty drunk, but I thought the date went really nice again, but yet no kiss. I think he thought I was kinda cute drunk, so he grabbed me and said, "you are so funny like this." We decided to take a walk to help me wake up a bit before I got on the subway. I asked to hold his arm and he said fine. He said he'd keep my alcohol tolerance in mind for next time. In a playful way I thought. Anyway, we hugged goodbye.
This is where I'm at now. I honestly don't know what's going on in his head. His parents I think want him to get married and he's not crazy about the idea. In either case, what he's looking for is someone to marry, and I guess he wants to be sure before he adds anything that might make things more complicated. I'm sure he's talking to other girls, I don't know if he's going out on dates with them or not, but he's talking. It also shows that he logs on to the dating website often, so i know he is looking. All of this bothers me, but I can't say anything to him, since it's part of the dating thing. But we've been on 5 dates, and given there was a 2 week break, it's been like 3 months since we started talking. I just started a new career, and it really drains me emotionally and physically, and wondering where we are makes it so much harder. I keep thinking about my shortcomings, and what he doesn't like about me. It's not easy. I mean, he's asking to see me, he talks to me, he listens, he gives advice, he cares and he's not doing it for sex either, since we haven't even kissed! How long should I wait? Any ideas on why he's acting how he's acting? How should I approach this relationship if I want it to become something? Should I play hard to get? I'm so confused!
Thanks sooo much for reading and for all advice!