dreaming about a girl i used to see alot and no sign of stopping...

[heavymetalkid]

this was about a year ago, i was 17 and she was 16. it was around christmas and one night i said i didnt need my camera anymore so i said ill walk to her house to give it to her (longer story about the camera with her but nevermind). we talked on her porch for a while before i gave it to her so i can go home and i said "i need to tell you something, ive liked you soo much for soo long I dont..."

she teared up for a moment and said "aww, John (i forgot word for word but you get it)" then i didnt know what to say so it was quiet for like 15 seconds and we just dropped it!?!?

later on on the phone she said it wasnt akward or anything and she views me like a bro (shes been openly saying that for quite a while now).

nowadays we dont talk because she mainly talked to my brother but im still feeling good/embarrassed about that occurance because i still have strong feelings for her.

shes in a relationship and has a whole new circle of friends and dont know what to do about this because im still determined to be with her. i dont know what to do.