does she still love me or is she over me?

[rockstar]

hellp ppl

I am new here and i have been looking for some advice on a break up i had 3 months ago. Well here i go i met this girl online about 1 year ago i live in cali and she lives in canada. I dident think we get to a piont that we like each other i thought i was just u know chating with someone nothing big but the thing is that we fell in love and we where together for about 9 months b4 i went up there and see her for the first time. We talked about marrige and kids and how we loved each other more then anything. I was a jealous guy and i dident like her going out to parties becuz i dident want anything to happen to her and i know i was doing wrong by it and i get pissed becuz she wanted there wen i called her when she said she would i know i was stupid and i messed up i loved her so much i was scared i lose her i know it was becuz of the long distance. But still i should have trusted her and i did but i dident show it i some times say that she was cheating on me when i was pissed i dont know y i did that but i did she cry and get mad at me for it but never say she leave me. Her friends say i was obessed with her and maybe i was i loved her but she never thought that b4 . When i went to go see her i told her i wanted to ask her to marry me she told me that she wanted to wait a year i already bought the ring so she was like if u want to u can i will say YES well this is b4 i when to go see her sorry i dont know i know she dient want to yet but i am a guy and i am stupid. Anyways i went to go see her everything was perfect i met her and we got along every well i did ask her to marry me and she did say yes i was the happest guy on the plante that night we both had sex for the first time but i had to leave the next moring and her perents dident know about me becuz she is from a different race. I was sad for leaving i dident want to go but i had to i came home and got online and she was crying and wanted to break up with me i was like how is this happening she dient that night but the next day she did she told me i was to obesseive and controlling and posesive and she dident want that wut i was anymore i think it was her frined that made her think that way she never thought that way b4 and she told me she loved me more after she met me and thats y its so hard to do this we broke up and for the next 4 days she was crying everytime we talk but we where still friends. Up untill after new years she started talking to this other guy and i got jealous but i dident say anything to her i talked to one of her friends and i called him a dush and i told her i still think we will get back together her frined promised me she wont tell her but she did a couple od days later she came up to me and yelled at me saying i have no right to call him that and she said she dident want to be my frined anymore and her frined deleted me off her hotmail account but i still talk to her on her old one she will come one sometimes she says to check her school stufff but i dont know she got made at me for sending her a valintines card and i just said sending a card to all my frineds a couple of days later on the day we met a year ago she comes on and starts to yell at me for that again i told her its not that big of a deal and then she just went from mad to happy anyways we talked the next day again ans she showed me she was weaing my shirt i thought that she might still love me or even care about me after she says she doesnt have feeling for me anymore and we are not friends the next day we where talking and i asked her wuts interesting and she told me she might go out with that guy soon that kinda got me in the slums i just talk to her yesterday with my friend in a three way convo she told my friend thats her friend to invite me in we talked about some stuff but she was not talking alote so we asked her where she go and she responded by saying i was talking to my boy that made me feel like shit and i was kinda feeling that she was rubing it in my face i dont know wut to think anymore if she still has feeling for me even tho she says she doesent or i am just hope she does by thinking a way that might seem like she does i even have called some phone psyschics i dont know y i did that but they say she is comeing back and that she is teaching me a lesson for being the way i was but i dont know if i should believe them i really need some help here and if anyone has some advice for me i am willing to here it i dont want to let go of her i love her more then anything i just dont know wut is going on i still have this gut feeling that she still loves me but i dont know if i should go by that please help guys

[thepinkrockstar]

woah. no offense. but thats one huuuge block of text without any punctuation. o.o would it be possible for you to change that into something more readble? Its just easier for me ( I don't know about anyone else) to understand. :S

[rockstar]

woah. no offense. but thats one huuuge block of text without any punctuation. o.o would it be possible for you to change that into something more readble? Its just easier for me ( I don't know about anyone else) to understand. :S

sorry about that i dident remember to do that i was just righting i kinda changed it dont know if it will help tho but if u can read it and telll me some advice on that it will help me thx bye

[JimmyHat]

I didnt read any of your post except the title but my advice is this.....get over her. Once she has her mind set on the relationship being over, it isnt gonna change. Better get over her now before it drives you into depression and all that good stuff