I'm digging myself deeper into a hole...

[heavymetalkid]

I think I'm loosing my mind!

(background) I've known my neighbor since 2007. Currently I'm 18
And she's 16. She's always been my brothers friend then eventually my
Friend in 2009 when we used to talk a lot (I was a freshman) and
Throughout high school I've had different friends and 1 girlfriend but always
Liked that one girl.

Since late 2010 I became obsessive and I'm scared... It's nothing abnormal
(hence creepy) but its taking it's tole on me. I've only seen her once in 6
Months (that was Friday) and I've been trying to talk to her nonstop but
She rarely replied and I'm loosing it.

I'm constantly thinking of past years including her and different
Atmospheres representing those times. And I just broke down crying
Just now because I failed at finding any girl I can get truly close
With.

I'm jealous and angry at everyone (especially some boys in her
Life). I go to an all boys school which infuriates me and I'm pretty
Quiet there so I'm very mad. Yesterday I slammed a kids head
Between the locker and his door because he was a jerk.

Please help

[MaidenMinx]

Dude, you really need some counselling. You need to learn how to let go and move on.

This girl isn't into you and you can't keep blaming all the troubles in your life on this obsession.

[Red Apollo]

The past years are just that, the past years. She doesn't reciprocate, just let it go. There are other girls, the problem is you hold this girl so high up on a pedestal that you don't see the faults, and only see the perfect soul mate you want to see. Find some hobbies, watch a movie, talk to friends, DO something. It will take your mind off her, and help you heal. Talk to other girls, even if you aren't interested in them. Talk about the weather, what you had for breakfast, who your favorite batman villain is, quantum mechanics, anything. It doesn't matter what you talk about. Even if you aren't interested in them, it will help you, trust me.

No one can do this for you, we can only guide you. YOU have to want to help yourself. This girl can always hold a special place tucked away in your heart somewhere, but she doesn't need to have a hold on your entire life.

[bulrush]

Is this the same girl you have posted about before? I also think you need some counseling, and possibly meds. Normal people don't slam a guy's head into the locker for something that was just annoying. Things like depression can give you a short fuse, and make you angry a lot. So can low testosterone, whose symptoms look just like depression.