I've been best friends with the same guy since the second grade, but over the years, I've grown to love him with all of my heart. I want him to be mine. I daydream about our future: marriage, children, traveling, laughing, being happy, everything. I trust him. He's loyal, he makes me laugh, smile; I'm comfortable with him.

But.. Is friends with benefits a good idea? We talked about it, and then we finally kissed..for 2.5 hours. It was so passionate and perfect. He was my first kiss and I his at the age of 8. Now, 8 years later, we're finally together in the way I've always wanted to be.

But I'm afraid he is just using me for his own experience. He cares about me and likes me, but he always says he's busy since that day. It's about a month and a half later, and I haven't seen him since the night we were together (I snuck out) from 11 pm to 4:30 am.

HELP.