What was I thinking?
Someone please help! I think I might have done what I promised myself I would never do. However, what's done is done. The other day I sent my ex an email basically requesting to give us another shot. However, I think I ended it well, but I feel like I might have played my cards completely wrong.
We were together for 3 years and broken up for a little over a month and there have been cases where she wanted to talk to me or see me, but the most recent case got me thinking. If you read my post "I was skeptical...but it's working" near the end it explains my most recent of events. In summary, it just states that she contacted me telling me how badly her "life" is going since the breakup. I think overanalyzing was my problem and I may have not handled it very well thinking that I handled it fine.
Anyways, I sent her an email asking her where I stand in light of these events and requesting that we possibly give things another shot. Where I think I went wrong is two ways. My message was clear that if she had not agreed and said no, then I asked her to not reply and just leave it. This was for my own good, because I don't want an explanation, I'd rather not be contacted. This also is an indirect way of telling her not to talk to me unless she wants to get back with me. I think she might have gotten the message. The second way I was wrong, was because I feel I may have worded it wrong. Although I'd love to see if she's willing to give it another try, it showed that I was possibly willing to sacrifice the life I'm having right now, and my life is going quite well.
However, I just think that I ultimately knew her answer was going to be no anyway and in a sense, it's my final way of closure and for her not to contact me until she's ready if that point ever comes along. I'd like to see some of your thoughts on this and if you are requesting the email I sent, I will post it later on.
Thanks,
Cdoc
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