A few weeks ago my GF lost her favorite family member to cancer. During the months preceding there were times she shut me out briefly to focus on herself; but for the most part we communicated, she shared photos, doctor visits, updates, and so forth as she cared for her loved one. Then about 2 days after they passed away, she shut me out again and we haven't talked now in 2 weeks and barely communicate by text. She says she doesn't want the pressure of knowing I worry about her, or worrying about me, or caring about anything or anyone else. She says she doesn't need anyone or any support and just wants to be left alone. However, she is sharing on FaceBook, stories about her family member, sometimes lighthearted stuff, and a lot of pain and reaching out or expressing how lost she is.
I read about Shining Armor Syndrome, and see some of that in me. That noted, I am confused and hurt as to why she is reaching out online yet won't let the person who loves her more than anything, we've been talking marriage in the not too distant future, have anything to do with her. I think I understand, she doesn't want to be emotionally involved with anyone else right now, or feel she has to emotionally support me.
Any advice on how to handle this? Right now I have stopped communicating for a few days. No texts or anything. I did send flowers and candy she will get at work today (I sent some cards last week, the only thing she acknowledged was a photo I sent of her and her family member visiting me about 6 months ago - she thanked me for that) But I want to wait for her to come to me. However, I'm concerned... if I push her she will just reject me more, but if she is reaching out for help and I don't attempt to help, when she "comes out of it" she will be angry or hurt that I didn't try harder. I am thinking let her get the flowers, then text her tomorrow just to say I am thinking about her, and here for her, and let it go at that for now.
Again, any suggestions? Thanks.