So I was wondering what I should do in this situation. I have confused feelings about this guy. We fooled around a couple of times about a year ago but I never slept with him because I was confused about what he was to me, we fell out weeks later mostly my doing, and I refused to see him which was kind of hard considering he is my older sisters best friend. Then he and my sister kind of disconnected for a while so I didn’t have to see him and it allowed me to heal or at least I thought so. So anyway he pops up back again in my sisters life a couple of weeks ago and we all hang out, that night he confesses to me that he’s sorry about what happened last time and he still harbors feelings for me..

I completely dismiss him and tell him it’s never going to happen again. He states it’s alright and that he’ll keep trying. I go home and that speech that night racks my brain for days, until I’m tempted to call him and set things straight. Over those few days what I established or put into my head is that we would never work out and I still have a hard time trusting him from the first incident and to resume it again would make me look/feel stupid and a total hypocrite. I told him this in so many words and asked him to lay off whenever I go hang out with my sister and he happens to be there.

After some arguing he gave in, I told him I just wanted to be friends, he still had a problem with that though but really didn’t say much about it. So I hung up the phone feeling like I just won a gold metal. Until later when all that resentment I felt towards him kind of cooled down, and I felt hurt. To the point where I felt tempted to call him over and apologize and take him to bed lol... But what’s messing me up is the fact that I’m not a big risk taker and me taking another risk for him scares me. I can’t deny that there’s nothing there for him, it’s not love but it’s something that’s keeps nagging me and won’t go away, and that scares me too to think that I might be missing out on something because I won’t take a chance.

But right about now I feel like it’s way too late. The day I called him that same night he started talking to this other girl, and ohh no I tell you I didn’t like that at all and it sounds like things are going great. Now I’m all messed up and don’t know what the HELL to do, I want to call him but... at the risk of sounding stupid I haven’t. How dare he move on when he has my brain all in jelly over him, I don’t know what to do... Help Me!!