Hey everyone nice to meet you all. I am going to try my best to keep this short but this is the first time ive ever expressed these emotions so bare with me.
I have been a relationship with my gf for almost 9 straight years and we met when we were 16 years old. I honestly love her to death and she is the only girl who I have ever been with. To be honest we are both virgins because she wants to wait not so much for religious reasons but also for moral and stability for the "what if" scenario i guess. I do want to have sex with her but i will never force her and i respect her wishes. This Is not the issue ....ironically its actually the opposite. You see we have been together for so long and I love her with all I have and I know she feels the same way because she has told me on countless occasions. But our lives are changing now. She is getting a career now and I'm still a student who's just finishing off his university degree. But while shes moving on in life I feel like I'm screwed. She is going to be in a nice building downtown with successful potential partners and i am just afraid that I am going to get hurt. My brother has been cheated on twice, once by his now ex-wife and once by his gf. I don't know if this plays a factor into my current scare of being cheated on but I don't want this to bother me anymore. She starts working there soon and I don't wanna bring this up to her because i don't want her to think I don't trust her or even put the idea in her head. She is a beautiful girl with a stupidly caring personality I am just afraid to lose her and I don't know what to do guys. She has never once given me the impression that she could cheat or wants. She always tells me that she can never see herself kissing another face. Why this bothers me so much is because she has always worked in environments that were surrounded by 99% females..even her degree at university was populated by females. This is different, going to be new opportunities, different situation and challenges.
Please help me clear my head or some advice as to how to cope because this is ripping me apart. I refuse to be the guy who demands phone calls and location status and restrictions in life. I just know I have been working my entire life to be with her and never thought of anyone else because for me, they just don't compare. I just feel that maybe that wont be enough. I never use to have such low self-esteem..It is shocking.