I'm just having one of those crappy nights where I can't stop thinking of things. It's been about a month and I know I am doing better than I was in the beginning but I'm still pretty sad about everything. I feel like I'm more awake now too and realize that he doesn't want me in his life and I shouldn't want someone like that in my life. It's just hard for me to shut someone out completely that I love. I guess I'm wondering when does it stop hurting and when do you start to really breathe again? I think it's just crazy that so many of us get into these heart breaking positions where the other person doesn't feel the same way. But I guess that's life and it's a learning experience.