It all started with Ashlee and I seeing each other, we randomly hooked up one night and from that night on I fell crazy for her. I've known her for a while as she was one of my friend's ex-girlfriend. We started seeing each other and everything was great except for a few things that made it a little hard. I was working as a bar attendant night times and studying at uni full time during the day, she had a normal job working Monday-Friday 9-5. Not only that but we both had plans to go to Europe in 6 months down the track. She wanted a relationship and I wanted it as well, what stopped me asking her was the fact that I didn't want to be a shitty half-asses bf who would not see her alot, I wanted to give her everything in the world. I know relationships are hard and you fight through these things together but I felt deep inside that this was the right girl; possibly the wrong time.

She kept telling me that if I was not going to commit to her and become bf gf that she would leave me, this started little arguments between each other and I feel like the biggest idiot in the world not to have done so then. She told me she could even love me and our feelings were already very strong. I sat there in front of her watching her cry hysterically as I was such an idiot not to say straight out at that moment I wanted you forever. I was committed to her, she was the only girl for me, she is the most amazing person I have met in my life. It all happened soo fast and she stopped everything that was happening between us; This was exactly 1 year ago to this day. She said she just wanted to be friends and I could not take that, stupid me I got upset and spent a little while away from her and not chasing her and telling her how much she meant to me and making her mine. A month or 2 later I tried speaking to her and telling her how much i missed her and want her back, she said it was too late she has moved on and we are only friends, she also said there was someone else and she was not getting into a relationship with that person because she was going to Europe shortly, she stopped seeing that person before she went. This occurred in June, she asked me to drive her to the hotel she was staying with her mum before she flew out to Europe, I still cared for this girl and took her. She went to Europe and I tried contacting her through facebook and she did not seem to give so much attention, maybe she was enjoying herself too much.

When she came back from Europe she moved out into another area, I helped her organize a bed at cost price with the help of my mum at my mum's work. My mother later that day told me that she came in with some guy to see her, this got me cut and don't speak to her and tried not to think about her. Moments have passed and I start speaking to her in late December/January and we text more than we had before. Later in Feb this year she sent me a text if shed loose me as a friend if she had a bf and since then the world has collapsed on me. She has a new bf now and I feel that my girl that I'm crazy for is gone for good. Ashlee and I are both 24 and her boyfriend is 28; it is killing me that I feel that this guy would settle down with her and take my girl of my dreams away forever.

I don't know what to do now, I did not end up going to Europe last year but am going in June this year, I wanted to start a relationship with her, since this experience I've been through I will change my job to daytime work during the week, I will be finished uni soon and I've changed my values in life. Im hoping that one day I can give it my all and have a second chance with her because shes everything I ever wanted. I was such an idiot to make her wait for 5 months when she was with me just to say "will you be my gf". I'm here because I need advice and your thoughts on do I deserve a second chance and if Ashlee does break up with her boyfriend, would she give me a second chance. Shes my priority in life because I love her, and my life is not the same without her. I am a better man now, I don't want to give up on her.