Hi, everyone I need help getting over this guy. I met him at work and we started out as friends but within a month we knew we were attracted to each other, but I wasnt ready to be in a commited relationship so I asked him to be my friend with benefit and prior to agreeing to be my fwb he did tell me he had a gf. At the time my mindset was i didnt care its not like i knew her. I just told him i dont want drama if he thinks theres a chance he can get caught then forget it but he said theres no chance of that happening which was true by the way. I think his gf at the time might have had a hunch but never 100% sure. Anyway, after we hooked up for the first time i noticed we both changed. I actually got jealous when i knew he was with his gf and he would actually get mad that i went out with guys. So right then and there i knew we fell for each other or at least i thougt we did.

The next thing was the stupidest thing ive ever agreed to, which is to be his grl in the side. Basically the "other" woman. He told me he wanted to be with me and to just give him time because he didnt want to end his relationship with his gf in bad terms because her family helped him out financially. Stupid me believed him and actually waited for him to end things with her. Two months go by nothing happened so i told him to just go to her and leave me alone because i cant stand the pain. Again he promised to end things with her but this time he put a date on it. He said give him a few months when he's almost done paying her family back. Again after two months nothing happened and again I told him i cant do it anymore , but he goes and gives me another date this time one month. I know you all are probably thinking im an idiot which i agree but i dont know why i loved him so much and i guess the love made me blind at the time.

Anyways, so stupid me again gives him one more chance. Only it finally hit me, if he can pick and choose when to break up with her all these time but still hasnt. It means he was never going to leave her for me!! So i tried ending it with him again only this time he did the unimaginable he told me right then and there that he will end it with her that same day because he cant lose me and that i was his everything. Sure enough he really ended it with ber to be with me. I was fwb with him for 1 month then his chick on the side for 8 months and turned into his gf . Finally i thought , i was so happy no more thinking about where hes at or whats he doing. I finally have him all to myself, then i realize he's actually a very jealous person and very unfair, and has anger issues he actually treated me better when i was his side chk then when i became his gf. We fought almost everyday and on days that we didnt fight it was because i just kept my mouth shut. Its so tiring being with an immature, selfabsorbed and unfair person so i recently ended things with him but this time for good. It hurt so bad, but why? Shouldnt i be bappy? Isnt this whats best for me? He's. been a jerk to me since the beginning and lied to me time and time again and says all kinds of mean things to hurt me when i prove him wrong in argument. He just sucks in everyway! I just dont understand why is it when i feel sad and lonely i start thinking about giving him yet another chance even though i already know what will happen. Why am i experiencing a heartbreak even he was the worse guy ive ever been with ?

I know time heals all, but what to do until then besides hang out with friends? When i get sad or miss him i want to text him because he still text me to work things out and this is the first time i havent responded to his text.