This is a bit of a read but if you could take the time to read and give me your opinion I would really appreciate it. I feel very unsure right now and need some opinions.
Ok so about 3 years ago I started talking a little bit to this girl from Brazil that I met playing ps3. About 2 years ago we started talking all night everynight even though I was married (very unhappily) and about 6 months after that started I ended things due to me being married. I am currently in the process of getting divorced (Huge shocker I know) and have been talking to this same girl for the last 5 months now again. We skype pretty much every night, talk most of the day and share everything. Things have been amazing and we even went on a trip to Mexico together to meet each other for real. That trip went amazing, we really do make a great couple and are both in love with each other. She is clearly madly in love with me.
Just for reference we have logged countless hours on skype just chatting, watching movies and playing games and over 60,000 messages on facebook in the last 5 months alone. I feel I know everything about her
We have been talking about her moving to Canada, she also has 2 young kids that she would be bringing with her. I want to be with her, love kids and want to have a family life (I have a son of my own and love nothing more than teaching him and spending time with him)
There are a couple of problems though with all this.....
One is that we have only physically been together for a week...... We where talking about her coming down for a month or two with her kids and living with me to see exactly how that scenario would play out before committing and getting married (which is the only way she could stay) but if she came down for a period of time like that she would loose her job and would be jobless if it didn't work out for whatever reason. I am so unsure if it is a wise idea to commit and marry her without more real life experience even if everything makes me feel like she is my soul mate which is how I feel..... She is completely willing to move her whole life over here. I suppose either scenario would be devastating to her if it didn't work out. I dont know if there is any other options other than either end things or move her down and immediately marry her. Is that crazy to marry someone like this?
Second is the only possible thing I dont like about her but I am not sure how being countries apart effects it. She is very clingy, gets upset if I am not around for one night. Like if I go out to see friends or family and dont say anything to her all night she feels I dont care about her. Says that I must not feel the same about her and wonders who I am with. She tells me that she realises that its a problem she has, I know she has never felt cared for in her past and she feels why would I care about her. She has some anxiety and depression issues but I do to, most the time we can understand the others emotional state because we have felt the same ourselfs.
I dont know how to take it though. My ex never cared what I did (never made me happy though that she didn't, always wished she did) and I have never felt obligated to spend a certain amount of time with someone. To make sacrifices about my time seems foreign to me and I wonder if its a me problem as much as hers. I do love the fact that she cares about what I am doing and has a voice about what she would like, makes me feel good..... Would it be considered normal in this situation for her to be very clingy? I am also not sure how her feeling I dont care at times may affect our relationship in real life.
Other than that I have no problem with the whole immigration process, her bringing kids and the cost involved. To me those are all only small obstacles to be with someone I feel I can love for the rest of my life.
I appreciate you taking the time to read and would love to hear what you have to say or any questions you may have. Maybe you can help me see something that I am missing too.
I just want to try to be as smart as possible with this.
Thanks.