Hi all, thanks for taking time to read my post.
I started seeing a girl in February of this year who goes to grad school with me. Immediately after we met, she started talking to me a lot, calling daily, wanting to hangout, etc. Eventually we started seeing each other. We'd go to dinners, art shows, out drinking, happy hours, hooking up, and she'd do things like ask me to skip class so we could go walking by the water or something. I took her to a wedding with me in April, where she insisted we post pictures of us kissing on Facebook. We hadn't discussed what we were doing, but she kept wanting to see each other, and we were having fun, so I didn't think anything of it. I enjoyed her company.
Shortly after we started hanging out, random people from our school began warning me that she was a user and immature, and I needed to be careful to associate with her. She didn't have many friends and seemed to have lost all of the ones she had. No one really had anything nice to say about her when I asked around after the warnings. I don't normally take gossip seriously, so I thought nothing of it and continued seeing her. In May after exams, we went out for drinks, and met my friends for a dinner party afterwards. During the dinner, all my friends started asking her about what we were doing. I had told them we weren't dating, but of course they had to ask. She seemed cool that night, but the next morning, she texted me and said she was embarrassed to have to answer those questions and we shouldn't hang out except in groups now if people were going to gossip. I said fine, and she left town for the summer. We didn't speak after that.
In late June, she called me out of the blue to ask how I was doing. Eventually she asked me if I would see her over the 4th of July holiday and whether I would go with her to a cookout with 3 of her friends and their fiancees. I didn't go with her to the dinner but I saw her that morning. Eventually, she started coming on weekends during the summer to see me and we'd hang out all weekend. She started asking me if I would take her on trips, and she even tried to invite herself to come with me to New York to meet my best friends, which I told her no because, well, we weren't dating...
In late August, I heard that she had slept with a delivery man who she didn't know. I was at a cookout and drinking, and of course everyone started telling me how foolish I was. Against my better judgment, I decided to confront her. I told her I had been warned she was a user and felt she was using me for what I could do for her and she didn't care for me at all. She said I had no right to judge and she was proud of herself for sleeping with that guy because he was cute. I told her I wasn't going to keep entertaining her like I had been doing if she was just going to sleep around and I was sorry I defended her so often when people had told me to avoid her. She asked me to come over and talk and stay with her, but I declined and said I was too drunk. She countered by saying to leave her alone then and that she was going to block me.
The next day, I tried apologizing, but ended up saying something wrong and she got angry and she blocked me on FB too.
Last week, after a month of not speaking, I emailed her an apology. I didn't ask her to talk to me, but I told her I had no right to judge her and she deserved better behavior out of me than that. I haven't heard anything from her. A friend of mine told me she was only interested in what I could do for her and she didn't actually value me as a friend or anything else. She's never dated before in her life and only has had flings with men much older than her (she's 24, she told me about flings she's had with men as old as 45, usually doctors or men with money).
So I ask you, girls, what was going on here? I acted way out of line at the end, but was I entirely wrong to be sort of confused about our situation? I really didn't want a relationship since we were both graduating in May and unsure where we will live, but I kinda felt hurt over all of this. I did a lot for this girl, and she sort of tossed me away. I miss the times we had together, but maybe that was all a farce.
Is it best just to leave her alone and chalk it up? I'm not sure if we will ever speak again. Doesn't seem like it right now. Maybe I am better off?