So, it was all going well, until this Monday he told me "he wasn't looking for anything serious at the moment." Pretty heart wrenching,
but okay.
Why do you say "okay" when obviously it is not okay with you? You do yourself harm by being so indifferent to your own emotional health.
Stop being okay with things being undefined. He's told you he doesn't want a relationship with you but he wants ALL the benefits that that dynamic entails. Fk that. Talk to him and tell him that you want the relationship defined, by him, and if its not that he wants to be exculsive with you and he stops actively looking for anyone else, then you'll have to discontinue what you are doing so that you don't get shredded here.
Stop being Okay with shit you are obviously NOT okay with. What a waste of your time and emotions. Seriously. Gurl up and get yourself to where you want to be with him and if he's agin it then stop giving him the things that people in relationships share with one another. Who the **** does he think he is? Who the hell are you allowing him to think you are?
"We are seeing each other" JHC.. you've been "seeing each other for ages and now you've advanced this 'seeing each other' to the sexual. Time to ask for exclusivity or he gets the boot.
“The willingness to accept responsibility for one’s own life is the source from which self-respect springs.” ~Joan Didion