I'm in love with one of my good friends, and she doesn't even know.
Let's call her Amber. I first met Amber in Grade 11, two years ago. The first thought that popped into my head when I first seen her was "Wow, look at that weirdo." This was fitting, because she was sitting alone in a group of desks, with a crazy hairstyle, and hippy clothes on, which actually describes how she always looks even to this day. Little did I know, she was actually quite "popular" and had a lot of friends. After about a month, I had to sit with her because all the seats were taken up. She was doodling and I commented on how good it was, and from there, we just started talking and eventually became great friends.
After a year of being good friends, we're both in grade 12 now. I really liked her at this point. During my 5th period class, she had a free period. She always spent it in the art room, painting. I went down every day for 15-20 minutes just to hang out with her (I had a filler class (Journalism), so it didnt matter). I've never had a friend like Amber where I could just talk to her about anything at all. If she felt sad, she could just talk to me no problem. If there was a problem between us, we'd talk and work it out with no hesitation. It was really great.
Near the end of the year, we kinda just decided that we would go to prom together. I was the happiest guy in the world. We had everything planned out and it was going to be really fun. Until about 3 days before prom. She texted me and said we weren't going. She had gotten a boyfriend and he basically refused to let her go with me. I was destroyed. I got really angry at her and we basically had a big fight. She broke up with him right after prom, so that sucks..
We didnt talk for 3 months. Until the end of September when she messaged me and said she misses me. We patched things up and now we're good friends again. My feelings for her returned as well. Except now, I feel like I'm in love with her. I haven't felt this way about any of my ex's. And she doesn't even know.
I haven't seen her in person since before prom, but we do talk regularly over Facebook and through text. I asked if she wants to hang out some time to get caught up, and she said she'd love to if she wasn't so busy (University, Work, ect..). We did skype a couple times last week, and that was amazing, but I don't know how to ask her if she wants to do that again without being awkward.
How do you tell someone that you just love them? I can't just come out and say "Yeah I think I'm in love with you". I really just want her to know how much she means to me.
Also I'm a really shy person, always have been, and that gets in the way a lot of the time.